No words to explain because i am not sure what is actually happen to me these past weeks. So many things happen and i am yet an ignorance again. I don't know where is actually my boat is heading, seems to be i am almost lost the direction again. Or maybe i am sinking in this sea of life again?
I almost crash into an accident last Friday and today i receive bad news from home. My cousin commit suicide. Family matters maybe, not sure why he decide to drink that herbicide which maybe he think that is the easiest way to end his life and solve the problem. Did you ever think to do that when you are in serious difficulties or depression? Whatever problem that we face will never can better solved by commit suicide. (But, sometimes i admit, that thought ever cross my mind but i am grateful when Jesus save my life and foremost my SOUL). My cousin family face so many things already, his mum (my aunt) passed away end of last year, his brother-in-law (his sister's husband) also commit suicide last year with the same method, his dad passed away a few years back. Hmmmph.... I sure aunt's soul is still wandering on this earth asking for prayers and she want to rest in peace.
Admit life is complicated when i try to handle it with my own strength, but life will be much more easier when i put all my worries in God's hands. He is the Providence and full of Mercy & Grace.
No thoughts is a thought!