TRUE CONFESSIONS

just a difficult time fly by...

2012-01-10T00:49:00.000+08:00

Try to hide behind the smile on my face..for the burden to slips away..
(Photo taken at Aso-Kyuju National Park, Kyushu)

Been not in a good mood recently. Nothing seems to be right at the beginning of the year. I hope this will not dragged till the end of the year. There is always Hope for a better tomorrow right? So, with that i hope i can pass through this difficult moments. Again? Yes. Seems to be my life is not easy. Too many obstacles come along the way. Am i strong enough? Nope. I am not. Each time i feel like giving up. Feel like to end my life. Depression? Maybe that is what happen to me. In the middle of the night, nothing happen, tears burst out from my eyes. Sometimes crying silently, sometimes louder than a baby... Am i having a problem? Maybe, can't control my own emotions, stress, too much thinking? Maybe.

Trying hard to overcome this situation. Feel like blaming Jesus. But He Loves me even more. The feeling of guilty and i realize quickly this is not right. I suppose to go back to Him in no matter situation i am. Ask for His guidance. Praying Rosary for guidance from our Mother Mary. This makes me feel lighter. Thank God, He always bring me back to Him. Especially at the times that i almost forgot to tell Him what i am facing right now.

I am an ordinary human being that every moment in my life i fall into sin again and again. Repent... that is suppose to be done. Jesus Christ guide me to face this difficult moment in my life. Good night Jesus...

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Bless This Little Child,
Little Rose

Looking for a House For Rent in Kota Marudu

2012-01-04T13:53:00.000+08:00

It is almost 20 days since i started working in Kota Marudu and i still did not get my own house. Looking around but still can not find one. I did find a house not far from junction to Tandek but i am doubt about my safety in that area. It is a new house build by a private individual and i like the house. Since it is new the surroundings is very quite and at night it is really dark, no street lamp also. The rental is standard for KM area RM600 per month. Quite expensive rental in KM now because short of houses. There were teachers, nurses and police from outside KM need a house, so first come first serve basis-lah. If it is in the housing area the rental even more expensive, rarely can find RM600 per month, average is RM750 to RM1,200 per month.

Phewww.... what can i do? Still work out on it till i find one. Anyone know any house for rent in KM now? Thanks.

My 10 Resolutions for 2012

2012-01-02T11:02:00.000+08:00

It's a new year and i am late one day to update my blog. Okay, allow me to wish each and everyone of you a

BLESSED CHRISTMAS 2011

FRUITFUL & BLISSFUL YEAR OF 2012!!!!!!

For this year i have 10 things to do to become a better person in God's eye. With His help, i shall:

1) Give up complaining .... focus on gratitude

2) Give up harsh judgments .... think kind thoughts

3) Give up worry .... trust divine providence

4) Give up discouragement .... be full of hope

5) Give up bitterness .... turn to forgiveness

6) Give up hatred .... return good for evil

7) Give up anger .... practice patience

8) Give up pettiness .... put up maturity

9) Give up gloom .... enjoy the beauty that is around me

10) Give up gossiping .... control my tongue

(Adapted from Lectio Divina Edition Dec 2011 - Author Unknown)

How about you?

Hope you have a good one for this year of DRAGON!!!!

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Cheers!!

Little Rose

Starting A New Path

2011-12-16T10:39:00.000+08:00

Moving on with my new working environment. New work scope, new friends and so on. To start on, even i have to start with riding a bicycle, i am okay. As far as i can use my own brain, use my own ability and use my own strength to cope up with my new work. I am Okay.

Wish me LUCK guys!

Left behind all the bad memories. Move on with the new ME. The new Rose perhaps.

With Love,

Little Rose

Home Sweet Home

2011-12-09T10:48:00.000+08:00

18 days flew away just like that. Still i feel it was only yesterday i fly to Japan. But now, i am actually at home. I am back to my lovely country, MALAYSIA. Yai!!! Happy to be home but still start to miss Ube City, Japan. There are so many great memories during our training and i really enjoy it. Even though sometimes the weather makes me feel uncomfortable, wake up in the middle of the night coz i am freezing. The heater is not working and the blanket is not enough to warm me.

The leaves are falling but it was not snowing. Hoping for a chance to touch a snow, but it is okay. The cool windy already make me cold enough.

The JAPAN TRIP is like a DREAM COME TRUE because now i am BACK TO REALITY. I am back to my daily routine. Hoping to make some difference and change for a better person.

Till then!

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Little Rose

Sorry for the Long Silence

2011-12-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

Hello Guys!!!

I am so sorry for my long silence. Being busy with my training in Japan. We just finish our study tour today and tomorrow is Sunday and it will be our rest day but need to make use of the time to prepare report and action plan. Anyway, i hope i will have more time to update you guys with my stay in Japan. 18 days now only left 4 days to be back to Malaysia. Time flies so fast.....

I left you with this photos of our last study tour at Kyushu Island.....

Visit Wind Power Energy Station in Kitakyushu Eco-Town.
This is one of the renewable energy used in Japan for generating Electrical Power Supply.

Till then!!!

God bless,

Little Rose

Day 7 ~ Bus Tour to Yamaguchi City

2011-11-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

Having a bus tour for sightseeing at Yamaguchi City today. So, i share some of photos along the trip. The whole day and i am tired now.. Will share the story later. Till then!

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Tired,

Little Rose

JAPAN ~ DAY 4

2011-11-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

At last after so many not-so-good things happen to me, one by one ... I feel HAPPY to be here in Ube City, Japan. Three days upon arrival we were at Chugoku JICA Center. Got two classes to get the familiarization with Japan management structure and system, continued by cultural and traditions of Japanese people. We did not have enough time for more exposure on the Japanese custom and so on.

We officially start our training today at Ube City in Yamaguchi Prefecture. Starting with official meeting with Ube City Mayor. We had a long journey by bus from HigashiHiroshima to Ube City. It takes about 3 and half hours drive. But the road condition here is very good and no traffic, smooth journey.

Tomorrow will be another day and now i need some rest... Till then..

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Tiring & Exhausted,

Little Rose

I just Walk AWAY....

2011-11-16T07:51:00.000+08:00

Enough rough moments i get these past two weeks. People makes my life so miserable. Makes me think i am useless and stupid to be fooled around like this. I am DONE with the hell your games is. Whatever you think you can do to me, i just let it be. I am not a fighter for something stupid like what you did to me. I will just stick to my own decision. Why? Because THIS IS MY LIFE.... I Live MY LIFE not someone else LIFE okay. So, i can make my own decision, WISE or not let it be me myself determine and face any consequences later on.

Are you HAPPY when you turn my life so complicated and miserable like now? I BET you are UNHAPPY inside.. Why? Because i know you are a KIND and GENEROUS person but because of this condition you dare to make my life upside down. At the end, you will reflects and think back of what you did to me, and that time i HOPE you will realize that you whack someone else life and that is not so good things to do.

Till then!

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Feeling Better,

Little Rose

Tanda-tanda Si Rose Stress

2011-11-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

Banyak benda dua minggu ni nda pandai selesai dan sangat bikin pusing kepala dan akhirnya menjurus kepada STRESS. Sya mengenalpasti tahap kestressan sya dan telah menyebabkan beberapa efek kepada diri sya. Antaranya ialah:

Tiba-tiba hidung gatal terus bersin terus jadi budak hingusan... nda pandai bagus ni... berhingus saja...
Belakang leher ataupun dikenali sebagai tengkuk jadi stiff dan rasa sengal2 ja ni...
Mata tiba2 menjadi merah dan pedih... macam kena infeksi saja ni.. Bertaik ja ni mata sudah..
Haid tiba2 datang sedangkan dua minggu yang lalu baru ja sya period... haiyah!!
Senang sekali mengalirkan air mata.. nda patut2 mau menagis pun tiba2 ja air mata mengalir... doiiii!!

Cukupla tu lima ja... jgn lagi kasi tambah... Sya nda mau jadi gila... Kesihatan sya betul2 terganggu bila emosi sya nda stabil disebabkan masalah yang nda pandai selesai ni.. Bagus kasi SELESAI itu orang yang bikin hidup sya porak peranda ni!!!! .... Alahai, Jesus, please forgive me... huhuhuhu..

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Stress Mode,

Little Rose

Everyone Also Like That ........

2011-11-12T10:48:00.000+08:00

Chinese Blouse and Kebaya Pendek?

2011-11-11T16:45:00.000+08:00

Wah... i am feeling of making blouse for my trip next week.. What should i have? Hmmm.... Thought of Chinese style blouse and kebaya pendek... Here is what i found when i Google some images..

Simple and looks easy to fit me...

This one also looks nice-lah.... hmmm...

Err...... pretty though...

I am not into fashion... errrkkk... can't make any decision.. well, will ask Anty Tailor when i see her this evening.... She will have a great ideas for me... (^__^)

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Fashion Blurry,

Little Rose

At Work Place.....

2011-11-11T10:52:00.000+08:00

I can not tolerate with people who:

Hypocrite (double faces) ---- see Wikipedia for the full definition.
Talk only no Action ---- Haiks.... bikin panas ni orang begini ni.
Complaining ---- Esp talk bad about other people (i oso do sometime but if everyday.... dooohhh... please, no body is perfect.. ko perfect sangat kah?).
Take things for granted ---- Sometimes things that looks so simple and easy become so complicated when you just overlook that thing okay...
Perfectionist ---- Well, some people love being so mess up but work still can be done... Adopt with other people work style.. (Nda semua orang hebat macam kau bah!).. See Wikipedia for the difinition....
Double standard ---- Please just be FAIR okay.... See Wikipedia for the meaning of this..
Gossiping in the office from morning till lunch hour and then continue till end of office hours... ---- Please, i have things to do.. I need to complete my work!!
Bla bla bla.....

Okay, enuff said. Still got some more but i think if i list out all of it, you will not feeling like to work at my work place.. Yai!!!.... Sorry to say but that is the reality, maybe some of you face the same things at your work place. How do you overcome it? How do you face people like this at your work place? Have some tips to share with me? If you do, please share with me... Thanks..

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Work with ethics,

Little Rose

God is Great...!

2011-11-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

Last week, on Friday... I feel very down. Something not so good things happen in the office etc etc... Feel very weak, emotionally break down (i may say)... Never feel this BAD for so long.. This one makes me feel like i am a fool, stupid, alone, angry (all sort of negative feelings). Get out from the office, enter my car and burst into tears in my car... Call my bestfriend, and talk to her for a while.... Feel better but just a lil bit. Drive back home and when i reach home, i don't know what to do.. I am lost... Take my bath and thinking of going away but don't know where am i heading. Feel like to drink some beer with friends and make myself drunk and forget all of these mess. But deep inside my heart say something else. HOLD ONTO JESUS. Log in FB and write my status:
feel like to vomit.... emotionally break down....
why makes my life so miserable... why can't make it simple and let it go....
i need an alcohol shot...... or a silent moment with Jesus?

Take my car key, drove to my friend's house near town. Along the way, my brain keep thinking all sort of things. Asking Jesus why is this happen to me. Push play button of my car mp3 player.... suddenly this song on air:

I feel like He told me, He is there for me. Just hold on Him and He will be by my side. I am not all alone as what i think. He is my Father which i can depend on. It touched my heart so much and i sang this song together with the player on. After this song, continued with another song. And it was this one that really makes me humble down my own self.....

As if Jesus is talking to me that He know how bad i feel that moment. That He know, i want to cry out but i don't have anyone at the moment with me. He told me to cry on His shoulder. I burst out into tears and i really cried out like a child. I let go all the burden in my heart into His hands. Let go everything and i realize, my life is in His hand. He can lighten my burden. In Him i am not ALONE. I am weak when i am not with Him.

Thank you Jesus for touch my heart and never leave me alone.
Praise to Him the most high!
God bless!

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Shower by His Blessings,
Little Rose

Playing Tagged Again!....

2011-11-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

Have been silence from Blogging World. So much things happen so, where to start over? Okay, since i promised to Ashley Easther at Eat.Pray.Love to play this TAG thing, so i must keep my promise. Here it is:

Rules & Regulations:

♥ each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal .
♥ answer the question the tagger set for u in their post and create 11 new questions for the people u tagged the answer .
♥ choose 11 people to tag the post and link them the post .
♥ go to their page and tell them u have tagged her/him .
♥ no tags back .

11 Things About Rose Ragai

Love Jesus, Love My Family, Love My Friends VERY VERY MUCH.
Love new adventure, travelling, exploring new things.
Love jungle trekking, love being in the forest cause i love animals.. wild animals esp birds and mammals.
Love wild animals but still can't get rid of my phobia of snakes.
Love traditional food such as umai (Melanau food), ayam pansuh (Iban & Bidayuh food), hinava & bosou bakas (Kadazan-Dusun), nasi bungkus (Murut & Lundayeh).... sayur2 kampung etc... semua nya ngam and i love it ... nyum nyum...
Not so girlish...not into make-up, high heels, beautiful fancy dresses and even net ball...
Can play basket ball even though i am only 150cm.. petit but i have stamina okay.. :-D
Not into exotic food especially FROG & FLYING FOX... please, not for me..
Love Blogging and addicted to FB... not to say so much addicted but still i am okay if there is no internet connections..
I am socially smoker but now i quit already (totally quit okay)....
Not into fun fair or festivals celebration and even wedding dinner in the hotels... i prefer kampung2 style... hihihihi. (~~katara, kampungan ni~~)..

Ashley Easther Questions:
1. What was the craziest thing you did?
I pretend that i am supercool and jump into the Padas River during the white rafting and then i regret of doing it because i feel i almost drown. (~~tu la tunjuk hero punya pasal~~).

2. McD or KFC??
McD (~~kalau di KK~~); KFC (~~kalau di Sipitang sebab Sipitang teda McD~~)

3. Which bad habits, if any, drive you crazy?
Use all the money i have in my wallet and at the end, zero in my bank account.... uhukss...

4. List 1 thing you wish you could change about yourself:
Be more confident!!!

5. Name 1 thing you miss about being a kid:
Having FUN!!!

6. Name 1 thing you love about being an adult:
Freedom.... he he he he

7. What's your favourite song of the moment?
Cry On My Shoulder

8. Which would you rather have, 100 million dollars or true love?
True Love!...

9. If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to?
Love to be known as ROSE.

10. Have any hidden talents?
I think i can sing... ha ha ha

11. If you could visit anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Kolkata, where Mother Teresa set up her congregation....

11 Qs From Rose Ragai:

What is your favourite food?
Do you have enemy(s)? Will you forgive them?
Do you have BESTFRIEND(s)? How many?
Outdoor or indoor?
Nicol David or Nicole Scherzinger?
Love your JOB? Is it your DREAM JOB?
Why you LOVE or HATE your job?
Singing, dancing, sitting, gossiping .... which one you prefer when you are at a party?
Do you have pets? What is it?
What is you crazy bad habit? (i.e: kentut di khalayak ramai...kih kih kih)
What is your phobia?

DONE with the Qs... So, now TAG my dearie friends!.. Here we go.....

Coffee Girl, Sza Sza, Irene, Globalized Dayung, Cathy, Frouline, Daniel, Olive, Markati, Sabrina, Stella

Okay guys... Feel free to TAG along....
(kalau rasa malas mau main ni Tag.. nda perlu la.. teda paksaan bah ni)...

Tagging Mood,
Little Rose

Let's Talk Something #1 - Environmental Education

2011-11-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

~~Okay, i am too much on my not stable emotions this past two weeks. Maybe it is because too many things happen at the same time and i am physically tired too (that's why i get sick..huhuhu).~~

So, today i want to share a few photos i captured during EE Race 9 organized by EPD end of June this year. Last year we have the same programme too but this year is more FUN!!! Yai!! I love the fact thats all the teachers were very excited and the spirit to learn something new is inspiring me. Here we go...

Ice breaking session - solve the puzzle

Short brief by the Village Head at Kg. Cenderamata II on Micro Enterprise

Explanation on the process of preparing good seedlings for plantation.

Hands on experience yai!! (~~jadi general worker kijap~~)

In front of the eyes.. cable yarding harvesting...hmm.. something new perhaps!

R & D incubation space.. cuttings.. cuttings... cuttings... trees...

The kampong people ready to do handicraft demo... get ready to learn it!

Leisure Time!!!! Spend some time at the refreshing clean river.

Now is the time to share all the knowledge and experienced they gained!!!

Can you see all the teachers are all very hardworking? Taking notes, listens carefully to the explanation, some very eager to do practical parts and even enjoy the moments!! They did learn a lots from this four days programme. Thank God i am one of the fasilitator and i love these teachers.... (^___^)

Till then!

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Inspired Liitle Rose

I am sorry

2011-11-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

Sorry for being sounds so demotivated....

Sorry for being so down and depress......

Sorry for writing something is not inspiring you.....

Sorry for wasting your time reading all the mess i wrote here these past two weeks.....

Today....

I feel much more better and relief...

I make up my mind....

I can see a clear picture ahead of me....

My heart realize what i really want....

Have to sacrifice and let go of something to get something better....

Sounds selfish? That is what i thought at first! But...

Life have to move on...

To move on to another phase and It's MY LIFE...

GOD gave me CHOICES so i have to DECIDE and CHOOSE...

Which WAY?

HE WILL GUIDE ME THROUGH....

God Bless!!

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Feel Blessed Little Rose

Decision has been made.....

2011-11-02T21:34:00.001+08:00

I have decided, i have decided. Please don't make me change my mind again. I already give my 100% to this decision. Don't make me have a second thought about this. There is no turning back. Errkk... Is it? Ahhh... why is this so difficult?

I thought after made this decision i will feel at PEACE. But why is it still feel so HEAVY inside my heart? Am i making the right move? Am i make the right CHOICE?

Jesus, lead me to Your way. Lead me to do more of your Will. Lead me and guide me.

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~~Uneasy Heart~~ Little Rose

....... Helpless

2011-11-01T07:57:00.002+08:00

Credit to Demotivation.us

This is me right now. Don't know what to do. In the midst of something that i don't know how to decide and how to come up with the solution. I am blank, i can not think, i am confused, i can't get any good answer. I am just ......

I don't know....

~~Confused Little Rose~~

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Update at 3.37pm:
Reading Word of God online and found this site Spiritual Catholic - Your Hope is in God.

One thing i found there is this:
Everyone of us needs inspiration and encouragement, especially in the times like this!
Without GOD and without HOPE there is only one thing left – depression.

Lord Jesus is the source of POWER to live my daily life.
Thank you Jesus.

Miss My Blogging Activity

2011-10-28T21:42:00.001+08:00

Every time i log on to Blogger, i only manage to post one post or two, replied to the comments and visit a few posts of my blogger buddies (if i have more time, i manage to leave comments) and this happen in these past two weeks. Works and church activities, both makes me traveling here and there. Now, my body say STOP... I am TIRED and you make me SICK.. waaaa... i got flu, sore throat and cough. Not feeling well now but still manage to write this post. Why? Because i MISS my Blogging Activity!!! I miss visiting your blog guys and update on your superb stories... Which sometime make me laugh and something interesting to read through.

Okay, i need to have a rest now. Tomorrow half day working and at about 7pm having dinner for seminarian fund raising at KP. Another day to go through.

Have a Blessed Weekend for all of you! GOD BLESS!

Update (29/10/2011):
Sya tidak peduli, ni hari dalam opis sya mau Blogwalking juga, banyak suda cerita sya termissout dari kamuorg. Kalau sempat sya pi leave komen, kalau inda, baca saja la...huhuhu...

With Love,
Little Rose

I am Going to Ube City, Japan ~ Finger Crossed!

2011-10-27T08:51:00.000+08:00

Credit to Google

Very excited but yet still not confirmed yet. Need to pray harder that my company management will approve me for participate in this training. Wah, i really really want to go la..... Haish!!! Finger crossed!

With Love,

Little Rose

Month of Rosary Giveaway

2011-10-25T00:41:00.000+08:00

Silence from Blogging World these past few days because of travelling. Last Sunday was a Mission Sunday so the idea of this Giveaway come up to share something with my dear friends out there. Since this is the month of Rosary, the month we Catholic dedicated to our Mother Mary, i would like to give away my hand made rosary. Here are some of my hand made bracelet and rosary, the first three trial but will make another special one for this giveaway.

St. Theresa of Lisieux medal bracelet
(still keep this one coz this is the 1st one i made)

Mother Mary medal bracelet.
(gave this as a gift for my bestfriend)

Car Rosary with shining cross.
(specially made for my bestfriend birthday yesterday, 24th Oct 2011)

These is the SIMPLE STEP that you can do to join this ROSARY GIVEAWAY:
1) You MUST a Catholic
2) Leave a comment consist of your Name & Email add
3) Open to Malaysia Only (Sabah, Sarawak & Peninsular Malaysia) and ended on 1st November (sorry for limited time).
4) Share with me your favourite Prayer.
5) Feel free to repost this post, this is not compulsory it's up to you.
6) Winner will be picked randomly ( i don't know how to do it using number generator so i will do it manually, write your name on paper, put it in the box and draw your name...just like pick a lucky number..he he he...)

That is it. Thanks for participate in this Giveaway and i leave you guys with the Introduction Prayer of the Holy Rosary. God bless.

O Queen of the Holy Rosary, You graciously revealed the treasures of grace, hidden in the Rosary, to the three shepherd children of Fatima. Instil in our hearts a sincere and profound love for this powerful prayer. By meditating on the mysteries of our redemption recalled in the Rosary, may we be enriched with its fruits and obtain the conversation of sinners and peace in the world. If it is in accordance with the will of our Divine Son, grant us the favours we ask of you in this Rosary. Holy Mother of God, intercede for us that each of us praying the Rosary may live in accordance with the will of your Son and thus obtain the joys of eternal life. Amen.

With Love,
Little Rose

I am BACK but GOING AWAY again!!!

2011-10-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! I am back after having two trips. The first one is going into the bush and planted some vanilla seedlings and having fun with nature. Then driving away to KM for three days. Spend some time with friends and Franciscan Sisters. Feel great when came back home but i will be away again this weekend. I miss blogging but i am just tired after travelling and yet need to pack my bags again this Friday. My friend and i will be going to Kaingaran, Tambunan. We will spend some silence with Jesus there. I hope God will touch my heart and i wanted to renew spiritually too. Life being harsh to me these past weeks but thanks God for always be with me.

There were some choices have to be made and hope i can make up my mind.

Here is the photo of my trip into the bush! Hope you enjoy as i am enjoying the moments too.

Misty and cold weather... But love it being there..

I wish you can turn into a Prince.... Ha ha.. Me & Mr. Bufo juxtasper.

Acting like we are in a Hindi Movie...wakakaka...

Before leaving this nice place.. The memory remain and maybe next
week i have to be here again.

So, that's it! Till then! God bless...

With Love,
Little Rose

P.s: Miss me? If you feel like missing me, leave me some comments... I miss to spend some time Blogwalking too... Next week, it is!

I will be Away...

2011-10-12T07:43:00.000+08:00

Meligan hanging bridge

Pack my bags... All the item needed for the trip already well pack in my bags...

Rations, check - Sleeping bag, check - Equipments for vanilla planting, check...

All other items are ready..

Waiting for my friend to pick me up and we are heading our way to the forest.

Hope everyting will be fine and finish with the Vanilla planting.

Wish you guys a Blessed Wednesday Morning!!!

Will be back tomorrow...

With Love,

Little Rose

The Talent ~ Rachel Crow

2011-10-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

Anyone watching The X Factor USA? I started watching it during the Audition episode and there were thousands of American went for the audition. It was almost like American Idol Audition but i bet you maybe because the judges are Simon Cowell and Paula Abdul, the judges for AI before.

In my previous post Crazy about the X Factor USA, i shared two of the contestants Drew and Jazzlyn. Both of them come up with stunning performances. But, today i have another favourite. She sang Mercy during the 1st Audition and it really WOW the judges and audience too but that time i am not into her performance yet. During the group performance at the Bootcamp, her group sang Whitney Houston song and still she did not catch my attention. BUT........ This one really WOW me and i can't stop myself replaying this over and over again. Each time i replay it she gave me goosebump. Yai!! Not believing me? Listen and watch for yourself!!...

She sang with the soul and put some emotions into the song!

I really love how she sang this song......

I think Beyonce already watch her too...

I wonder what is her comments for this performance...?

She in only 13 years old girl!!!

Enjoy watching.....

With Love,

Little Rose

Giveaway @ Yvonne And Her Playground

2011-10-11T16:28:00.000+08:00

Did i ever participate in any GIVEAWAY? Maybe once but never been so lucky so not interested about it anymore. Since i am not into Blogging mood lately, maybe this will help me to get back my Blogging Spirit. Hope so!

GIVEAWAY @ Yvonne and Her Playground consists of:

This Giveaway consist of samples of Dior One Essential, Dior Eyes Essential, DiorSkin Radiant Base No.001, DiorSkin Forever Liquid Foundation No.020 and DiorSkin Forever Compact Foundation No. 020. They are all brand new.

To Know more about this Giveaway visit her blog:

Giveaway: DIOR Products

With Love,

Little Rose

If.....

2011-10-11T07:30:00.000+08:00

If you are feeling good, then you're creating future that's on track with your desires.

If you're feeling bad, you're creating future that's off track with your desires.

As you go about your day, the law of attraction is working in every second.

Everything we think and feel is creating our future.

If you're worried or in fear then you're bringing more of that into your life throughout the day.

Yvonne K'obuya, Kenya

Have a Blessed Tuesday Morning everyone!!!!

(I am BACK in track? Hope so...)

With Love,

Little Rose

Lost my Blogging Spirit....

2011-10-10T16:30:00.001+08:00

Hello guys... It's Moday! I am not in the mood of Blogging. I am sorry that i did not visit my dear Blogger buddies blog too. Yai! Feel not happy about it coz i love reading your stories. My weekend is okay even though working half day on Saturday. Since then, i lost my spirit to blog. To think and to write and to share. ~~Ai.. nda bagus ni...~~

Anyway, this post is just a stop by with hope i will get my blogging spirit back, after work, tonight! Must do some Blogwalking and write something more interesting to be shared here.

Till then!

Update 11.10.11 @ 12.25am:
Akhirnya sya Blogwalking juga ke beberapa blog kengkawan Blogger sya.. Adoi, payah juga ni mau kasi bangun spirit Blogging sya.. Cuma, mau tulis post baru masih lagi nda ada idea... Biarlah dulu kio!

With Love,
Little Rose

I have a dream...

2011-10-08T12:31:00.002+08:00

After get back from work, i am very tired and feel a little bit dizzy while driving back home. Arrive home, so decided to take some rest and a nap before wash myself (nda tahan suda, sakit kepala sya bah tu la terus pi tidur/rehat).

Credit to Snake Dreams

During my two hours sleep (telajak pulak sya tidur ni..padahal mau lelap kijap ja). I have a dream of snakes. There were quite number of snakes thrown towards me. It landed on my body and one of it bite me on my back. It was painful and that makes me woke up. I was a little bit scared when i woke up but get back my sense so i went to wash up.

Trying to figure out what is it means, i Google about this dream. Here is some of the interpretation i found in Snake Dreams website.

Dreaming of being bitten by a snake is one of the most common and striking snake dreams. While the dreamer is likely to wake up scared or confused about the meaning of such a dream, a general interpretation considers snake bite imagery in dreams as a precious warning or wake up call regarding your waking life. A snake biting you symbolically signifies that you need to pay attention to a challenging situation or emotion that has not yet been completely acknowledged and dealt with.

Dream Meaning Summary:
1. The snake bite symbolizes a wake up call
2. Warning about a situation, activity, behavior or thought that are “poisonous” in your life.
3. Warning about something that paralyzes your ability to make a choice in order to take the next step in your life or a relationship
4. Resistance to what is perceived as a “temptation” or a situation that challenges your beliefs or values
5. Sign that you’re on the verge of a deep personal transformation
What does being bitten by a snake in a dream mean?

What does dreaming about a snake bite mean?
Here are several meaning definitions to help interpreting your dream.

Dream Meaning #1: Pay attention to something you’ve been ignoring
Dreaming of being bitten by this wild reptile can be interpreted as a painful reminder that you need to pay attention to a situation or relationship that has been challenging or difficult to deal with in your waking life. A snake biting you in a dream symbolizes your own guidance system or unconscious trying to get your attention through a wake up call.

You’re becoming more aware about an issue or aspect of yourself that you’ve been ignoring. The snake bite has the effect of prompting a reaction on your part, whether it’s pain, surprise or fear. Often, the dreamer will wake up right after the snake bites her in the dream. The attack from the serpent can therefore point to the need to wake yourself up, in your life too, from a situation where you have been compromising too much.

A dream of a snake bite reminds you that you need to resolve or come to terms with a situation or behavior that is paralyzing your ability to make a decision or move forward. Getting bitten by this wild creature is an invitation to examine what is currently “poisonous” in your life and to remedy it.

Dream Meaning #2: Meaning of the body part that is bitten by the snakeThe dream interpretation will vary depending on what part of the body is being bitten. Consider the meaning you give to the part and how it related to what is challenged or needs to change in your waking life.

For instance, a snake bite to the right hand means that you are conflicted about taking action or making the right choice in your life; it could suggest that you are preoccupied with acting in fairness or maintaining a healthy transparency in a relationship whether it is intimate or related to work.

Being bitten by a snake in the back could indicate that you need to pay attention to ill words or deceitful actions of people around you; it could also mean that you need to resolve issues from the past or concerns that you have been carrying with you for a long time.

Dream Meaning #3: You’re holding back your wild, untamed side
When you dream of a snake biting you, the animal may reflect conflictual urges or desires you have in waking life and that are hard to grasp or control. Dreaming of a snake brings to your attention, through the image of this animal, to a part of you that you or possibly others consider as “wild”, untamed, perhaps even “out of control”.

This inner conflict may have escaped your attention or you may have seen it looming over you, just like the animal in the dream before it strikes. The fact the snake is biting you indicates that you are in the process of becoming more conscious of what you need to do to take control of a situation or matter that has been creeping in

Dream Meaning #4: Transformation is painfully taking place in your life
The serpent is delivering the antidote to numbing yourself and avoiding what needs to be done to get to the next step in your life. The snake bite may point to a shift occurring in your awareness, a transformation: You are on the verge of becoming more aware about a matter that was previously hidden or avoided.

This radical shift may be experienced in a painful manner at first, but will be beneficial in the long run. This wake up call is part of your growth process.

Dream Meaning #5: Struggle with temptation
Dreaming of a snake biting you may represent the archetypal presence of temptation in your life. Just like the serpent in the Garden of Eden in the judeo-christian tradition, the animal in your dream could connect to a “temptation”, desire or situation you feel conflicted about because of it does not fit in your usual beliefs or ethical values.

The snake bite is a wake up call to face whatever is causing tension, perhaps even challenge some of your core beliefs or values and get a fresh perspective.

As for me, this is all the study that has been discovered by researcher about the meaning of our dreams, but still i put everything i God's hand. He know what lies in future. Give it all up to HIM. Let He guide me in this life journey.

Have a great weekend! God bless.

With Love,
Little Rose

True Happiness

2011-10-08T07:20:00.001+08:00

"Never fear the unknown; embrace it! Never ignore your opportunities; welcome them! Never listen to negativity; laugh at it! Never walk away from your friends; love and embrace them! True happiness can never be achieved if we are alone!"

by Jon Hawks

Have a wonderful Saturday with family and friends!!

God bless...

With Love,

Liitle Rose

P.s: I am stuck in the office working half day... mmm....

RIP to Steve Jobs - He makes me THINK

2011-10-07T12:56:00.000+08:00

Tired & Not Feeling Well

2011-10-07T07:26:00.001+08:00

Credit Google Image

I get sick yesterday afternoon. Having late lunch and my gastrik knock me down. Went to clinic, get my prescription. Take some rest at home and my stomach is really painful and uneasy.

This morning still feel a little bit tired and my stomach? Hmmm.. It's feel okay but at some point not that okay yet.

Hope i can manage to do my work today.

Starting my Friday morning with not so good feeling. Hmmphh....

Anyway, still wanna wish you guys a great Friday Morning! God bless!

With Love,
Little Rose

One Thing at a Time

2011-10-06T07:21:00.000+08:00

Work while you work,

Play while you play;

That is the way

To be cheerful and gay.

All that you do,

Do with your might;

Things done by halves

Are never done right.

One thing each time,

And that done well,

Is a very good rule,

As many can tell.

Moments are useless

Trifled away;

So work while you work,

And play while you play.

M. A. Stodart

Have a Blessed Thursday Morning Everyone!!!

Hope today we can do one thing at a time, any of important assignment at work or at school.
God bless!

WIth Love,

Little Rose

just be yourself.....

2011-10-05T07:38:00.002+08:00

Credit to Fuel My Motivation

You Have To Have Confidence!!

Have a Blessed Wednesday Morning everyone!!!

God bless...

Update at 10.26am:
I am really nervous and lost my words. Yai! How come i am like this? ~~Sajuk semua tangan ni tadi~~. All the answers i gave flew away and not even properly answered the questions. Huhuhuhu... Is this lack of confident? Hmmmphh.... Finger crossed again. Waiting for the answer next week...

With Love,

Little Rose

P.s: I really need some confidence this morning coz i got something happen today....

Wish me LUCK guys..

Feast Day of St. Francis of Assisi

2011-10-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

On the same day Oct 4, 2010 i posted about St. Francis of Assisi too. So, at this same day too, i want to wish everyone of this feast especially for the community of Franciscan Sisters of the Immaculate Conception Sabah.

Lets say Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi together:

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury,pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen

God bless and lets show love to one another!

With Love,
Little Rose

P/s: St. Francis of Assisi is one of my favorite saints. (^___^)

~~ Get out from Your Comfort Zone

2011-10-04T07:37:00.001+08:00

Credit to Fuel My Motivation

Your Comfort Zone Can Turn Into 'The No Progress Zone'

This is the stealer of our Motivation.

So, what we can do is, sometime we need to get out from our COMFORT ZONE to see what else we can do for better improvements.

Have a Blessed Tuesday Morning everyone!

With Love,

Little Rose

Crazy about The X-Factor USA

2011-10-03T23:19:00.001+08:00

It was last Friday and Saturday, i stayed at my friend's house. She told me there is one talent show at NTV7 called THE X-FACTOR. I love watching American Idol, So You Think You Can Dance, America's Got Talent, The Voice and there are some more. This X-Factor, i've heard before but did not watch it yet. She told me, there are Simon and Paula judging this show plus Nicole of Pussycat Dolls. Wow!! Seems to be interesting show. So, we watch two hours episodes on both Friday and Saturday. As usual there are great talents and there are annoying one. So, i want to share two of my favourite from the audition and i really hope they will not eliminated early especially during the bootcamp this week. I really hope both of them will pass it even though there are more talents selected for the bootcamp. Here we go!

Drew Ryniewicz

She sings her own version of Baby by Justin Bieber. At first she is a lil bit annoyed me because she so in love with Justin Bieber and she looks like too much. But anyway, that doesn't matter because i love listen to her version compare to Justin and that is what Nicole and Simon think too. Yai!! She make it!

Here is Justin Version and listen to both, you will get what i mean... :-)

Jazzlyn Little

She is the last person for the audition and she is soooo lack of confident when she go on stage. But, when the music turn on, she change her attitude. That's really amazing for a person. She did post in You Tube her video singing Christina Aguilera song but only 500 hits. Here is both of the videos and you watch both and you can see a star and sincerity in her performance during the audition.

and this is during the audition!

They are 14 and 16 years old girl. Amazing isn't it?

What do you think? Till then!

With Love,
Little Rose

.... when i start to BELIEVE

2011-10-03T13:04:00.000+08:00

As you all know, i always talk about my work with the local communities (did i mentioned that in my previous post.....? errr..maybe i did). It was a really difficult task when i need to gain trust from them at the first attempt to the village. I find it was so difficult to make them understand what i told them or what i teach them. Anything that i told them i need to repeat more than 10 times (bengap sangat ka dorang ni...??) because they are very slow in understand things.

With this attitude, i did not believe they can do well in the capacity building programmes that we arrange for them. Leadership, women empowerment, skills enhancement etc... Take months and months for them to get the concept and the learning process is really make me piss off and i am sort of giving up with these people. I lost my faith in them, i did not believe they can make it in future.

Recently, i realize something is going on with myself and these communities. It was almost 4 months i did not visit them (actually i need to monitor their progress every month). So, during the visit, i was SURPRISE!!! Surprise seeing them manage themselves very well. The women group manage their group very well with the consistent monthly income and even the group revolvng fund also increase. The elders (male) support this women group whole heartedly. WOW!!! I am really impressed with all the changes and improvements!

With this i start to reflects on my self, how is actually i see them? How i treat them? How my perspective is biased? How i look down on their capabilities? .....

How can they make it if i don't believe that they will change? The first and main thing i must do even before i start working with these communities was BELIEVE THAT THEY WILL BE ABLE TO CHANGE THEIR LIFE! CHANGE THEIR ATTITUDES FOR BETTER FUTURE FOR THEIR YOUNG GENERATIONS! I MUST BELIEVE AND HAVE FAITH IN THEM!

The feeling now is different for me. I feel no more burden within me when i faced them. Why? Because i start to believe in them and believe in myself that we can work things together to make a different in their communities.

THANK GOD FOR THIS GIFT OF LIFE JOURNEY!

With Love,
Little Rose

......to be different

2011-10-03T10:24:00.000+08:00

"Do not live another person's life because you were made to be distinct, special and peculiar by God's way."

by Trevis Emeka from Nigeria

Have a Blessed Monday Morning!

With Love,

Little Rose

What people THINK?......

2011-09-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

Some people think they are so GREAT
Some people think they are just an ORDINARY

Some people think they are so PERFECT
Some people think they are WEAK in so many ways

Some people think they are DAMN PRETTY
Some people think they are JUST OKAY
Some people think they are UGLY

Some people think they deserve THE BEST
Some people think they are BLESSED
Some people think they have been CURSED

Some people think they are LOVED
Some people think they are UNWANTED

Some people? …………

Can not EVEN THINK! Errrkkkk….. (spoiled)…!!!!

With Love,
Little Rose

Giving VALUE to myself....

2011-09-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

Did you ever face a problem valuing yourself? Especially when people ask, "What is your inner strength? What is your value? What is your personal qualities?".... I find it is difficult for me to see any good values in myself. Why? Maybe because i am the one who look down on my own personalities and did not given any values of myself.

I find it is very difficult for me to write any good things about myself when i write my resume or curriculum vitae. Especially when i need to write about my personal qualities (mau pi promote yang diri tu bagus bah kan so la susah ni..). If people compliment me of my good work or my look that day, i feel grateful and appreciate it but at the same time i feel ashamed of myself. Maybe too low self-esteem. Need to gain some more self-confident and self-esteem ~~la like this~~.

Okay, i find this article is very motivating and i hope it will help you guys too if you face the same problem as mine. I am in the process of accepting myself of who i am and be grateful of it. Giving VALUE to myself!

Consider the following acts of personal acknowledgment:

You know your boundaries and you hold them. If necessary, you enforce them. And you keep the delicate balance between boundaries that are too rigid or too flexible.

You routinely ask yourself, "What do I need? What do I want?" Then you act on the answers to those questions.

If you experience moments of doubt, you solicit outside feedback. You ask friends and colleague to tell you about your strengths.

You think well of yourself. If you (or your inner critic) make unkind statements, you disregard them. This is different than reflecting on what worked and didn't work in a given situation, finding out that you've hurt someone's feelings or deciding to do something differently in the future. People who value themselves are not perfect — they do make mistakes and harbor human blindspots.

Read more about this article at Give Yourself the Gift of Value by Claudette Rowley.

So value yourself — it's universally beneficial. <--------- i think i really and MUST DO THIS!!!!

Lets give ourself a GIFT OF VALUE guys!!!

With Love,

Little Rose

Gempa Bumi di Kundasang ~ 29 Sept 2011 (3 petang)

2011-09-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hello guys!

Just mau share sikit ni info yang sya peroleh dari sorang kawan di FB. She get the news from Malaysian Meteorological Department website. Since dorang kasi keluar dalam laman tu, mustahil la ni April Fool punya news kan? So, just beware of this la... Check for more news esok. Ni gempa bumi masih yang minor ja around 2.9 pada skala Richter but still kita kena berhati-hati. Terutama sekali pada korang yang berada di sekitar Kundasang/ Ranau.

Ni la pengumuman yang kena buat pasal gempa bumi ni:

Info dapat dari laman web MET

Take care guys! God bless!

With Love,

Little Rose

what you can do today........ start with SMILE

2011-09-28T07:59:00.000+08:00

" Today can be a great day for you and for others - if you take time to smile at someone, to express a word of kindness, to lend a helping hand to the one in need, to say a heartfelt thank you and to give a word of encouragement to the one who is overwhelmed with trials."

by Caroline Naoroji

Have a Blessed Wednesday Morning Everyone!
God Bless!

With Love,
Little Rose

Let's Use Social Media to do Good ~ Social Good 2.0

2011-09-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

Photo credit to Social Good 2.0

Recently i am planning to use my blog for something more than just an ordinary posts but an information too. Something that i can share with others and also benefits most of us in this blogging world.

Youth Asia own two companies known as GROUPON Malaysia and SAYS (which i think known as YouthSays before this -- hope i get it right). But, anyway, if you wanna know more, just click at the link of each site.

Okay, now get back to this new campaign at SAYS.my. The Social Good 2.0 is recently launched at this site for non-profits, grassroots movements, and NGOs to get help from social media users (just like us la Bloggers..:-)) across Malaysia to spread their causes. So, i am trying my BEST to do my part to promote this campaign Social Good 2.0 for us Bloggers to do some great things using our talent in Blogosphere.

So, now you can sign up at SAYS.com and start spread any causes that you would like to share with your family and friend (anybody out there). How to do is:

Click at this link -----> Social Good 2.0

Sign up using your FB account.

Now you can start exploring SAYS.my and begin to share this campaign with your friends and families.

You never know while doing this great job, you will be one of the winners to win prizes that offered for let more people out there know about this campaign.

I hope you get what i wanted to share here. If you are still blurring or confused just click the website and explore it dude (admit that i am not good in describing things.. lol.) .

LET'S GET STARTED TO DO GOOD USING OUR SOCIAL MEDIA!!!! GOOD LUCK!

With Love,

Little Rose

what Heart can do....

2011-09-27T10:27:00.000+08:00

"Living a day with anger & bitterness equals to taking several steps backward from happiness, from people you love, and from your dreams. Anger & bitterness are only a waste of time. Want to make wise use of time?? Do what the mind CANNOT DO but what the heart CAN DO. That is to make peace with yourself, and then you can start forgiving."

~ By Jessica Lona --- Indonesia

Have a blessed Tuesday Morning everyone!

With Love,

Little Rose

When i Trying to Hate Someone.....

2011-09-26T19:54:00.001+08:00

Photo credit to Google Image

I HATE YOU!

Is the three words that more difficult to said out loud in front of a person that annoying me or hurts me. Why? Because the consequences after saying that is more hurting deep inside my heart. I will keep on blaming myself for saying a words like that to the person. Blaming myself for not control my own emotions, anger and blurt out those three words that for sure will hurt her or him the most. The worse part is when i regret of saying it in the first place. Why did i say it to her or him? It will takes more time to forgive myself for doing this to a person. So, that is why it is hard for me to say I HATE YOU out loud to a person. It will be easier to say I LOVE YOU rather than I HATE YOU.

With Love,

Little Rose

P.s: Sharing some LOVE with all of you who read this post! I LOVE YOU GUYS!

When I am Almost Give Up....

2011-09-26T01:50:00.001+08:00

When i am thinking of GIVING UP...

This thoughts came by

....

...

Photo credit to Google Image

Came by the negative thoughts again....

Makes me wanna give up and stop this here...

Enough with it! But...

....

...

Photo credit to Google Image

Just like a Football Games... the second half is still there..

The final whistle is not blow yet! There is still TIME left..

But... i am tired of doing it... Its really suffocate me..

But... there is a says...

...

Photo credit to Google Image

At the end...

TRYING MY BEST NOT TO GIVE UP

but

TO KEEP ON GOING!

With Love,

Little Rose

My Reading #1 ~ Training for Transformation

2011-09-25T21:00:00.002+08:00

First things to confess, i am not good in doing reading. Why? I fall asleep easily (yaiii....!). So, that is the reason i can not do so much revision. I fall asleep only about 15 minutes after reading. Without warning, i fall asleep, i.e. when i woke up, it is already morning (if i read at night). I envy people that can do his/her readings without fall asleep. Okay, that is enough about that. Let share some of my reading just now (actually i fall asleep at the page of 14).

This book is a handbook for community workers by Anne Hope and Sally Timmel. As you know, i am not a Social Science graduate so i need to learn something about community work to get more knowledge/ information about my current job.

1) What is the real life problems of the people?

Photo credit to Google Image

- unsafe water

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- little education

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- too little food

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- no voice or power in decision-making

2) Skills needed for a new society

- improve our communication

- learn to listen

- express our insights

- diagnose together our needs

- analyse the cause of our problems

- plan and act together in teams, organisations and movements

Anything familiar to you? There were more but i am still in progress of understanding the theories written in this book, as well as the practical part. Soon i will be able to relate it with my work and for sure to improve the approach that i am doing now. I think i am too much into myself (emotional la ba tu) rather than doing this work for the sake of the people.

Transformation is only VALID if it is carried out WITH THE PEOPLE not for them....... Liberation is like a childbirth, and a painful one. The person who emerges is a new person, no longer oppressor or oppressed, but a person in the process of achieving freedom.... It is only the oppressed who, by freeing themselves, can FREE their oppressors... by Paulo Freire (Pedagogy of the Oppressed, pp. 43, 25, 32).

So, i leave you with that well said by Paulo Freire. Till then!

With Love,
Little Rose

Food.... What i Love?

2011-09-25T01:13:00.002+08:00

Did not blog a lot about food yet because i did not have a good photos to share. If i told you through description only, there will be possibilities you don't know what i am talking about. Why? Because some of us from different part of the world and we have our own food especially TRADITIONAL FOOD.

Recently, we have "makan-makan" in our office and it is "port-luck" style. Everybody brought our own food (i only bring kampong rice with me - still delicious rice ma). All food were SUPERB!!! All are delicious but amongst all of it, this is the four menu that i LOVE the most!!!! ...

1) Ulam-ulaman (Salad)

This is just like salad. Combination of lady finger, cabbage and cucumber (eating raw). Eat those with the shrimp paste (aiyah, how to describe 'sambal udang/ belacan' in English??).. Taste delicious and LOVE IT!

2) Kerabu Campur (Mix)

How to describe this ah? This is my first time eating this. It is combination of bitter gourd, anchovies, chilli, mango (the young one), torch ginger (bunga kantan) and lime juice. Its taste nice with the combination of all tastes and with the aroma from the Torch Ginger flower.

3) Hinava (in Sarawak - Melanau, we call it Umai)

It is a Kadazan-Dusun traditional food. Raw fish just like sushi but a different way to prepare it. A lot of things mixed-up inside this dish. Can't really get all of it. But we have, fish, chilli, onions, bitter vegetable, lime juice and i can't remember what else inside. But if you Google 'Hinava', i think a lot of Sabahan Blogger talk about this because this is one of the best local dish in Sabah.

4) Ambuyat (in Sarawak - Melanau, we call it Inut)

This is also my ethnic traditional food. We planted sago tree so it is a must we eat sago starch. He he he... We eat this with 'ulam-ulaman' but in Sabah they eat it with other side dish such as chicken curry or fish soup (traditional way of making this soup too, sometimes they put young mango inside it). Ambuyat tasteless that is why we need to eat it with other dish. This makes me MISS HOME... :-(

So, that is all about Food I Like!!

How about you???

With Love,

Little Rose

Trying to create my own blog BUTTON

2011-09-24T20:20:00.005+08:00

Actually i already tried a few times before. I sign to Photobucket to get my image code and yes, i get code for the image i want to use. So, i Google for Tutorials and tried my best to follow the instructions given. Yai!!! I can not even create one till now.

Today, i tried again after i saw Irene got her swap button section and a few other bloggers have their own button. All are so pretty ~~bah~~.

So, i create this image using Picnik. The web free tools to edit images. It is awesome and for sure i will use this site for editing photos in future. It's really COOL.

I thought the image is quite okay for my button. Upload it to My Picasa Web Album to get the code. But still not working with the code for creating button. Tried another one, log in to my Photobucket account and upload it there. Still not working!!! Yah!! I give up guys! It takes me more that two hours to figure this out and still not working.

Since it is still not working then, i leave this behind. Will see if i still have interest to create one in near future. Will see how ~~lah~~. Till then!

Update:
I MADE IT!!!! I make my own button using tutorials from Morgan site. Visit her site if you wanna learn how. Now, i am HAPPY!!! (^-^)

Another update (27/09/2011):

I did not know it is not working until my blogger buddy clinicoustic leave comments in this post. It was not working. Anyway, after almost two hours working on it and do some touch up with the photo and texts, at last it is WORKING!!! So, feel free to grab my button and leave me comments if you wanna swap button with me. NOW i am REALLY HAPPY!!! (^____^)

With Love,
Little Rose

Get rid of this please ~ Skin problem....

2011-09-24T14:59:00.003+08:00

Left hand is worse

Right hand still okay...

See my foot also got this... doi punya la itchy...

I face this problem since i am still in primary school. During that time it almost stick there in my hand. Even so many skin lotion/ cream my mum gave me and i put it there but never met any doctor to consult about it. Anyway, when i am in uni, it almost gone, it only occurs when the water i use is dirty. Not as frequent as before. So, i am happy lah..

When i start working, it seems to cured, no more itchiness in my both hands. But, since i am working at this new work place, since 2009, it comes back. In a year it will occurs a few times. Getting worst when last year it also appear in the palm of my foot. Really uncomfortable and i can not refrain myself from scratching my hand and my foot. (~~adoi, girigitan owh, rasa mau pi bakar sama tu lilin, supaya hilang tu rasa gatal...~~).

So the only treatment that i do now is, soak both my hand and foot inside the warm water where i put a sprinkle of Alzara Natural Dead Sea Beauty Salt i bought from Cosway. I did it twice a day, morning and night for about 20 minutes. I helps to reduce the itchiness.

Do you face the same problem as what i had? Share with me your experience. Who knows we can help each other. If i went to see the doctor the only medicine given to me is skin cream for scabies or something similar to it. It doesn't work. I keep scratching.

So, till then!

Update (26 Sept 2011 - Monday):
I can't control myself from scratching all over my both palms (hands and foot), so i decided to go to the clinic. Asking for allergic injection. This must do with something i eat and the environment. Yai!! Get the injection and anti-allergic pills. Hope to get better tomorrow. Taking leave for some rest today coz i did not sleep the whole night last night. At 3am i was soaking my both hands and foot inside the warm water, to get rid of the itchiness. I can't sleep till morning.

With Love,
Little Rose

Girl Day Out!

2011-09-23T20:31:00.006+08:00

I get to know about Cathj Guest Blogger segment through Wyne blog. So, i am curious about it and get to her blog about "Meeting Up". Something cool (that is what i think at first)...

Get sign up for Polyvore and i am stuck with so many choices in there and yet i am not a 'fashionatics'. Just ordinary and simple lady! (But still i love nice cloths to wear and cool accessories). So, here is the condition of this meeting up.

"It’s a ladies outing.. assume that we are good friends (Something like the girls on Sex And The City movie) and we want to meet up at 1 of the nice fancy bar and restaurant on the evening.. But before that we are going to shop at some nice boutique 1st."

So, what i got here? Tada......

Girl Day Out! by roseragai featuring antique handbags

So, that is my outfit for the meet up.(~~Bear with me, i am not a trendy person! :-P~~)

P.s: If you LIKE my outfit, click to LIKE button under my name. I am #30 in the list. (^___^)
(Lupa sya mempromote outfit sya kemarin... doi...)

With Love,
Little Rose

Need Some Space....

2011-09-23T00:56:00.000+08:00

Coffee on my table. Cracking my head to complete the detail action plan for FY 2011-2012. But at the end, i end up doing something else. Why? Because my head can not think anymore. You know what i do when i am out of motivation or my mind is BLANK?

Walking outside my room and start to disturb my friend, EM. Making up some stories and laugh out loud together or i start to show her new steps of aerobic that i know (siap buat aksi penuh lagi tp tanpa muzik la!)

Making some drinks and of course la coffee. With some biscuits whether it is Munchy's or any other crackers brand.

Went to meeting room, do some stretching. But make sure i am out of sight from my friend AHB because he is the only male in the office. ha ha ha... some of the movements maybe 'uncomfortable' for him to watch. Wakakaka... (nanti kena accuse sexual harassment at the workplace)

Walk across the building to my friend's, JG office (~~konon2 ada mau dibincang la..~~). Spend half an hour with her until i can ~~think~~ or i get my sense of work back. (ha ha ha..)

Switch on the radio from my Samsung Mobile. Of course i am listening to the Sabah FM. Only at Sabah FM i can listen to various music/ language of the world from English, Malay, Kadazan-Dusun, Korean, Hindi, Thailand, Tagalog up to the language that i don't know. It's call VARIETY!

Okay, let makes it up to 5 only coz there are some sort of other crazy things i do. He he he he... Till then!

With Love,

Little Rose

Mark the Date ~ International Day of PEACE on 21st Sept 2011

2011-09-21T13:30:00.002+08:00

If we have not PEACE, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other. PEACE begins with a smile.

—Mother Teresa

To be honest, i did not know there is a celebration of International Day of Peace and celebrated 30 years ago on this date (doi, malu skejap ni!). I read Irene post on Will There Ever Be World Peace, i still did not know about this day because she did not mention about IDP. Now is lunch hour so i blogwalking and came through Sr. Susan Rose blog. Her post was on International Day of Peace. I read through her post and surf the official website about this event. A'aahh... Now i realize that today is the day of this PEACE celebration!

“Young women and men everywhere are demonstrating the power of connection by reaching out to each other, and rallying together, in the common cause of the dignity and human rights to which their people aspire. It is in tribute to them, and the spirit they represent, that we have chosen … the theme of ‘Make your voice heard.”
~UN Message on the 100-Day Countdown to 2011 Day of Peace

The International Day of Peace ("Peace Day") provides an opportunity for individuals, organizations and nations to create practical acts of peace on a shared date. It was established by a United Nations resolution in 1981 to coincide with the opening of the General Assembly. The first Peace Day was celebrated in September 1982.

In 2002 the General Assembly officially declared September 21 as the permanent date for the International Day of Peace. By creating the International Day of Peace, the UN devoted itself to worldwide peace and encouraged all of mankind to work in cooperation for this goal. During the discussion of the U.N. Resolution that established the International Day of Peace, it was suggested that:

"Peace Day should be devoted to commemorating and strengthening the ideals of peace both within and among all nations and peoples…This day will serve as a reminder to all peoples that our organization, with all its limitations, is a living instrument in the service of peace and should serve all of us here within the organization as a constantly pealing bell reminding us that our permanent commitment, above all interests or differences of any kind, is to peace."

Since its inception, Peace Day has marked our personal and planetary progress toward peace. It has grown to include millions of people in all parts of the world, and each year events are organized to commemorate and celebrate this day. Events range in scale from private gatherings to public concerts and forums where hundreds of thousands of people participate. -- Quoted from the official website for International Day of Peace.

Some events near me (not to say too near need to use aeroplane to get to both venue...errk!)

Singapore

Malaysia

Little Rose thinks:
1) Start with the inner Peace. Have a peace of mind, heart and body. ~ PRAY for ourself to get it!
2) Share the peacefully heart and joy with others around us. ~ PRAY for others to experience it!
3) Make Peace with people that i have grudge with. ~ PRAY for forgiveness!
4) PRAY for the whole will be at PEACE! ~ NO War, NO Racism, NO Discrimination .....
5) Lets always be at PEACE!!

GOD Bless & PEACE Be With You~~~

With Love,
Little Rose

On Education ~ This Happen in Sarawak?

2011-09-21T10:01:00.001+08:00

Last week i did write a few posts about Kisah Si Ongol and also a little bit on the school building made from bamboo on Malaysia Day. A friend of mine ask me about the case of the trio student left out of exam (UPSR) last week in FB. I did saw a few of my friends talk about it too in their FB status. However, I did not get the clear scenario of this case so i search through the net and i found an article written in Borneo Post Online on the 17th September 2011. Here is the article and you may consider to read it through too:

BINTANGOR: Three pupils of SK Bandar Bintangor were not allowed to sit for the UPSR (Primary School Achievement Test) because the school considered them academically poor and might pull down its overall performance.

The three boys were said to have been locked in a remedial room while their classmates sat for the examination on Sept 13 and 14.

When their parents complained, they were allowed to sit for the examination on Sept 15 – the final day of the examination.

The boys are Idie Ganyol, Edward Ujoh Augustine and Richmend Mangi.

Meradong assemblywoman Ting Tze Fui told The Borneo Post yesterday that the three boys were locked in a room from 8am until noon on the first two days of the three-day examination.

She said their parents lodged a police report when the incident came to light.

“Police went to the school to check on Sept 15, and found the boys locked in a room,” Ting recalled, adding that the trio were later sent to the examination hall.

“But they could only sit for English Paper I and II and one other subject,” she lamented.

Urging the Education Department to investigate, Ting said the school had been unfair to the pupils.

She was concerned because UPSR was such an important examination.

“Without sitting for it, they can’t proceed to secondary school,” she said.

She chided the school for denying the pupils their right to sit for the examination, and said the school’s concern for its overall performance could not justify its act.

“Not everyone is born smart, but they can learn. That’s why we need education.

“No discrimination should exist in our education system,” said the Meradong assemblywoman.

My point of view:
Unbelievable!!! The teachers are so dedicated to the education and dare to do things like this. But are they humane enough? A'ah... I still believe everyone have the rights for their own future. I agree with the comments given by the assemblywomen above, she got it right. NO DISCRIMINATION! I am glad that our teachers at my primary school did not do things like this to my fellow classmates because when we already at Primary 6 some of them still can not read. I am proud of my teacher, Cikgu Siti Bohari because she spend more times with them in the intervention class 3 months before the UPSR. Much appreciation to my dearest teachers at SK Kg. Kebuaw from 1988 - 1993. Proud being your student!!!! God bless.

With Love,
Little Rose

Demotivate

2011-09-21T07:37:00.000+08:00

How many times in a year you have this feeling? DEMOTIVATE..... In your work, study, business etc. In many ways we are human lol and for sure this feeling will come by when something come along our way. The people we are work with, the management, the suppliers, the teachers, the education systems etc will somehow affect us in so many ways too. One of it, demotivate.

I Google the meaning of this word just to make sure i got it right, so according to Macmillan Dictionary (Online) this word is a verb define as to make someone lose their enthusiasm and interest. So, i got it right then! I hope so. :-)

Most of the time i get demotivate about my work. Maybe you also face the same thing as well when things are not well at work. I plan, i take action, i work hard to get the results but sometimes it end up stuck somewhere because of some problems that i can not solve (because it is not my jurisdiction to do so). So, end up, i feel like giving up and let it be like that. No more enthusiasm, no more interest about that work. Better to let go? Or run away? Arghhh... i already told myself i will not run away from problem anymore but at certain point when that problem is like a huge mountain (just like Mount Kinabalu) and i don't have the strentgh to fight over it, better to step back and walk away!

Did i rants something that not making sense to you this early in the morning guys? If i do, i feel sorry about it! Started my day with not so good word to begin with but anyway, i just want to express it out here.

Anyway, Hope you guys have a productive day at work, at school, at business and in whatever you do. BE STRONG and STAND STRAIGHT! Till then! God bless.

With Love,
Little Rose

Children ~ The Precious One

2011-09-20T13:09:00.001+08:00

To share a few cute lil faces i met last week. The smile remind us our own childhood. Didn't you? Hope you will have a BIG SMILE on your face when you see these cute faces as i did when i took their pictures. (^____^)

A little boy playing by himself without noticing i took his photo.

Playing kids game, can't really remember what it was.

Trying to catch the tail of the dog but end up laughing out loud!


Do you know that the orange shirt girl is aunt for the other girl?

Even a piece of broken glass can became their toys!

He is not ready to become my model!

He act really COOL when i said be still, i want to take your photo!

She act CUTE when i took her photo.

She work hard catching the small fish. Do you see it in her hand?

Time for some rest and sleep!!!!!!

Boys give you their SMILES!

Hope you enjoy seeing this photos coz i love taking them. Till then!

With Love,

Little Rose

Blessed Tuesday Morning!!!

2011-09-20T06:23:00.001+08:00

Canticle – Tobit 13:1-8

God afflicts but only to heal

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who in his great love for us has brought us to a new birth (1 Peter 1:3).

Blessed be God who lives forever,

because his kingdom lasts for all ages.

For he scourges and then has mercy;

he casts down to the depths of the nether world,

and he brings up from the great abyss.

No one can escape his hand.

Praise him, you Israelites, before the Gentiles,

for though he has scattered you among them,

he has shown you his greatness even there.

Exalt him before every living being,

because he is the Lord our God,

our Father and God forever.

He scourged you for your iniquities,

but will again have mercy on you all.

He will gather you from all the Gentiles

among whom you have been scattered.

When you turn back to him with all your heart,

to do what is right before him,

then he will turn back to you,

and no longer hide his face from you.

So now consider what he has done for you,

and praise him with full voice.

Bless the Lord of righteousness,

and exalt the King of the ages.

In the land of my exile I praise him,

and show his power and majesty to a sinful nation.

“Turn back, you sinners! do the right before him:

perhaps he may look with favor upon you and show you mercy.

“As for me, I exalt my God,

and my spirit rejoices in the King of heaven.

Let all men speak of his majesty,

and sing his praises in Jerusalem.”

Have a Blessed Tuesday Morning to ya all! May this day will bring joys and happiness in your heart.

I will be away to Beaufort this morning for some out station work. Hope things will be well too.

God bless. (^____^) SMILE

With Love,

Little Rose

I Love Your Blog!!!

2011-09-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

Visiting a few blogs and some are really inspiring me. Some not so but still they have their own way of writing. Some are original some are imitating and some are quite an interesting fella. I found this award in one of the blog i visit but i can't remember whose blog was it. But then, i tried to search it in Google Image and it is everywhere. Seems to be this is a very popular award given away to fellow bloggers.

So, i would like to take the opportunity to give away this I LOVE YOUR BLOG AWARD to five beautiful bloggers that inspired me and also my so-called blogger buddies.

Cathy at Periwinkle Confessions. I think i coincidentally stumble upon her blog quite a few months ago and i get inspired by her writing. Since then i follow her blog and up till now, her writings still inspired me. To quote a lil bit about her from her profile. Trying to find God in everything. And yes, he is in my coffee and in the flowers in my mom's garden. ;)

Keep on writing girl!!

Coffee Girl at A bit of coffee and country talk. I am addicted to coffee and that is how i found her in this blogosphere. Her writing is interesting with some input of her own perspective and experiences. Love how she wrote because, it will take me for years to come up with good writings as hers. She loves reading so it is shows when she writes. Besides, she wanted to become a writer. Quote from her profile, Drinks coffee - black. Loves Country music. Reads romance novel. Highly opinionated. Speaks sarcasm as a second language. Keep up blogging girl!!!

Frouline at Hi! Am Frouline.... Outside, she is my real bestfriend and get to know her since 2006, working at the same company. She start to blog in March 2010 after we take our own carreer path. She went to KL and i am going to Sabah. Connected again through blogging and i am happy about it. To quote about her a lil bit, A simple person, looking for something that comfort herself enough to earn her life.. Loves talk much, but she can be a speechless person when she meet someone she adores most! Loves laugh loud, sometimes it comes naturally and embarrass her enough! I hate people stab me at back. once you did it to me, i'm gonna dig u into the ground until u can't breath. What you give, you will get back! Yaaa... keep you blog update ok!!!! Miss you much dearie.... HUGS!

StellaClaire-Richard at A Paint of Life... Get to know her through another blogger buddies. Visit her blog, like her posts and start became friends. She visits me and i visits her blog. She just deliver a cute lil boy Gabriel Aiden. Here is a lil bit info about her, An Ordinary and Simple girl. Was born in Kota Kinabalu, East Malaysia. Love to share her thoughts, experiences and stories. Sharing is caring, and she believes that anything in life should be started with positive thinking. Grateful for what she had and always say Thanks to GOD for she still alive today. She hopes that all thought and shared stories able to provide some good lesson to fellow readers. You deserve my award coz sya suka blog kau. Happy Mummy Aiden!!! :-)

Irene at { I. R. E. N. E }. I just get to know her blog yesterday. Love her posts (almost all of it), and left my comments in her blog and i follow her. Hoping that i can became her friend. She write something so pure and inspiring. Love it and may she will always be blessed by God. Anyway, here is a lil bit about her, a blogger in her late twenties, old-fashioned and a homebody. Love to sing, write, draw, read and play the keyboards. Keep up with you mission to inspired people through your writing girl! God bless.

Okay, that is my lists of blogger buddies that i think deserve this award. For the rest of my other blogger friends, you are great as well but i only have a chance to write about these five first. Will see, what is the next award that i will give away for blogs i LIKE (maybe Like button just like FB button)... :-)

Hope you guys keep up with your writing and keep updating your blogs coz i love to visit and read it!!! Take care & God bless.

With Love,
Little Rose

Monday Morning Motivation

2011-09-19T07:23:00.000+08:00

Morning dear friends. Did you find Monday morning is a bit slow (blurr...) because of this is the beginning of the week. Aha! Yesterday was my off day, the day to rest at home. Saturday.... naaa... i am working half day. So, it is only Sunday as my off day! Yai!

Anyway, lets find some motivation to begin our day today! I need it to boost up some positive energy to begin my day! Lets read some funny motivational story about An Old Man, A Boy and A Donkey.

The boy rode on the donkey and the old man walked. As they went along, they passed some people who remarked, "it was a shame the old man was walking and the boy was riding." The man and the boy thought maybe the critics were right, so they changed positions.

Later, they passed some people who remarked, "What a shame, he makes that little boy walk." They decided they both would walk!

Soon they passed some more people who thought they were stupid to walk when they had a decent donkey to ride. So they both rode the donkey!

Now they passed some people that shamed them by saying, "how awful to put such a load on a poor donkey."

The boy and man said they were probably right so they decided to carry the donkey. As they crossed a bridge, they lost their grip on the animal and he fell into the river and drowned.

Lesson: If you try to please everyone, you will eventually lose your ass.

Ha ha ha...! How do you find it? It is funny but we must learn something through it right? So, moral of the story stop pleasing everyone. Just do our work accordingly and put things right! Have a productive day and God bless ya all!

With Love,
Little Rose

Another Inspiring Guy ~ Chris Medina

2011-09-18T16:19:00.001+08:00

Visit AngelBear blog just now and read her post on What Are Words.... So, i give my time to watch and listen to Chris Medina song which he dedicated to her fiancee, Juliana. This is really a touching story. I will not comments much on this, you may spend some time, to search for Chris Medina & Juliana in You Tube. For sure you will find a lot about their stories.

Will share another video shows the progress of Juliana recovery here too. Not many will do what he is doing. Lets get inspired by him. He is an Angel send by God to Juliana.

God bless!

With Love,
Little Rose

True Confession #7 ~ Parts of me u may don't know

2011-09-18T12:54:00.001+08:00

Wanna know more about me? Ha ha ha... This is just for fun. Who i am before and still some part of it, still within me. I am who i am and i am happy that i have lots of people loved me for who i am (is this makes sense...?) Maybe Yes maybe No.

I love drinking wine but not till i am drunk.

I smoke before but not now. I QUIT.

I love dancing and listen to music.

I am afraid of needle. I hate injection.

I love babies and kids. Love being around them.

I love being around Sisters. Feel at Peace.

So, that is it. A lil bit of myself. Is it TRUE? Ahaks... get to know me then (don't trust so much on photos because i can create stories through it). Till then!

With Love,

Little Rose

Have a Blessed Sunday!

2011-09-18T11:22:00.002+08:00

With Love,
Little Rose

Malaysia Day ~ Is it really have a meaning?

2011-09-17T08:46:00.000+08:00

I speak up my own opinion and experieced. Did not mean to condemn our government or any authorities. I think we still have the RIGHTS to voice out (Kebebasan Bersuara?).

My conversation with community elders at one of the village at Beaufort last week quoted here:
Me: Aman, napa kau tidak pasang bendera di depan rumah kau merdeka ini tahun?
(Uncle, why didn't you put up flags for independence day this year?)

KK: Owh... sya belum merdeka lagi ni. Jalan raya belum pun sampai-sampai kampung sya. Kalau kampung sebelah lainlah. Durang pasang bendera di depan rumah, di depan tandas, di reban ayam pun pasang. Bukan apa, pigi kabun getah durang pun jalan durang sudah bertar.
(Owh... i am not yet independence. There is still no proper tar road to my village compared to our neighbour village. They put up flags everywhere, in front of their house, in front of the toilet and even in front of the chicken coop. Even access road to their rubber farm is tar.)

The basic needs such as 2km proper tar road to this village is still not constructed. They are all local people of Sabah, not PTI.

See picture below:

In some parts of Sabah, there are still bamboo buildings for primary school of rural areas. It is good to have a "traditional" classrooms but is it really convenient for the students?

These two scenarios is what i have seen and i think i learn quite a lessons from the kampong people. So, MALAYSIA DAY? Is there are really equally rights in term of development between Peninsular Malaysia and Bornean Malaysia (Sabah & Sarawak)?

Why when there is ELECTION, the MPs start to visit rural kampongs and start to do some "development work"? It is really a bad trend in Malaysia. I think there are lots more to say but most of it already written and voice out by others Sabahan and Sarawakian people.

Till then!

With Love,
Little Rose

Life Lesson from a Daddy ~ On Education

2011-09-15T20:13:00.002+08:00

This is a story shared by Mr. Angilik, one of the Murut elders at Kg. Alutok, Ulu Tomani during my visits last Monday to Wednesday. This is a Malay version (Sabah Dialect). Only will be translated to English by request. Thanks for reading.

Ongol baru ja terima keputusan SPM dia. Dia dapat SAP dan tia dapat kasi sambung study dia lagi. Angilik, bapak dia mau dia ulang semula supaya dia ada peluang mau kasi sambung belajar. Jadi, dia akan berpeluang untuk dapat kerja yang bagus nanti.

"Ongol, kau tia mau ulang peperiksaan kau lagi ka? Kau tia mau sambung sekula ka?" tanya bapa Ongol.

"Tia mau la apak. Sya mau jadi orang kampung saja. Sya tia mau sambung sekula sya," jawab Ongol pada bapak dia.

Bapanya rasa keciwa tapi dia kasi biar ja keputusan si Ongol. Dia tia mau paksa si Ongol kalau dia tia mau. Nanti bikin susah juga kalau dia tia buat betul-betul. Jadi bapa dia pun kasi peluang si Ongol untuk hidup seperti orang kampung macam yang dia mau.

Suatu hari, "Ongol, mari kau ikut sya pi kabun gatah. Ko tolong sya tabas sana kabun. Ko bilang ko mau jadi dan hidup macam orang kampung kan?" bapak Ongol bawa si Ongol menabas di sana kabun getah durang. Tia menolak permintaan apak dia, si Ongol pun ikut bapak dia pi kabun. Tebas punya tebas, selapas setangah jam, si Ongol kepanatan suda. Dia berenti menabas.

"Napa kau beranti Ongol? Ko panat suda?" tanya bapak si Ongol.

"Ya apak. Panat pula ni jadi urang kampung. Tangan sya luka suda lama nda pigang parang ba ini," jawab si Ongol.

Bapak si Ongol cuma senyum. "Ini kali la kau tau," bapa si Ongol bercakap sendiri.

Selepas beberapa ari, si Ongol bawa apak dia pigi memburu. "Apak, mari kita pigi memburu."

"Bah, marilah. Kita mau bermalam ka balik ari?"

"Nda payah la bermalam. Kita balik ari ja."

Dorang pun bawa bekalan masing-masing dan sikutan masing-masing. Tiga biji nasi bungkus satu urang dan air. Senjata pun durang bawa masing-masing. Awal-awal lagi bapak si Ongol suda pasan sama mama dia supaya jangan larang apa saja yang dia mau buat sama si Ongol sebab dia mau kasi belajar si Ongol. Mau kasi rasa dia macam mana jadi urang kampung. Dalam perjalanan naik turun bukit, si Ongol kasitau bapa dia.

"Apak, kalau kita dapat dua ekur, kita sikut masing-masing am. Ko sikut yang ko dapat, sya sikut yang saya dapat".

"Bah, mana kau saja. Tapi, kalau kau dapat yang basar, ko sikutla sendiri am. Kita sikut yang kita sendiri dapat saja."

Si Ongol pun akun taruhan bapak dia.

Sampai di satu bukit, bapak si Ongol nampak anak babi. Dia suruh si Ongol diam-diam tunggu dia di belakang sebab bapak dia mau timbak anak babi tu. Tapi si Ongol ni, nda mau kalah, tanpa pengetahuan bapak dia, dia pigi sebalik tu bukit pusing dari jalan belakang. Bapak si Ongol dapat la tu anak babi. Tiba-tiba dia dingar bunyi timbak dari sebalik bukit. Dia teriak panggil si Ongol, dia dapat ka tidak. Rupa-rupanya di sebalik bukit tu ada indung tu babi. Jadi si Ongol dapat la pula tu indung babi. Nah, basar gia dia dapat tu. Masa durang mau sikut tu babi, si Ongol bingung suda.

"Apak, kita tukar la am. Kau sikut ni indung babi, sya sikut ni anak babi."

"Aih, mana bulih, kau suda akun kan tadi yang kita sikut yang kita sendiri dapat."

"Mmmm... kalau begitu, kita putung saja la kepala ni babi am. Tulang saja juga ni."

"Bah, ya la. Kita buang isi perut tu babi juga tapi jangan buang tu perut. Nda juga ada tulang perut dia ni. Sayang kalau kita buang."

Jadi, durang pun sikutla babi yang masing-masing durang dapat. Dalam perjalanan, turun pulang rumah si Ongol keberatan suda bawa tu indung babi, tapi dia tahan saja sebab dia suda akun sama baba dia. Tiba-tiba,

"Apak, ada lagi air kau ka?"

"Mana ada suda ni. Habis suda air sya."

Si Ongol yang kepanatan dan haus nda tahan suda. Dia pun pigi ambil air di atas daun tarap yang di siring-siring jalan dan minum tu air.

"Ongol, nda kutur ka itu air?"

"Ahhh.... kutur ka inda, paduli la apak. Sya haus betul suda ni."

Durang pun teruskan perjalanan. Bahagian pinggang si Ongol mulai sakit dan bengkak. Dia nda tahan suda tapi mau juga tunjuk hero sama bapak dia. Dekat jam 10 malam baru durang sampai rumah. Sampai-sampai saja di rumah, si Ongol kasi ampai saja sikutan dia. Lepas tu dia terus ja baring di dapur rumah durang. Dia tia pun pi mandi atau kasi bersih badan dia yang penuh dengan darah babi. Minum air pun dia nda suda. Terus mengampai dan tidur sampai pagi. Mama si Ongol risau juga tinguk keadaan si Ongol.

"Teruk juga kau kasi biar si Ongol sikut indung babi ni."

"Biar saja dia tu. Biar dia terbelajar. Bukan senang mau jadi urang kampung ni. Kasi biar ja dia tu. Bangun besuk, dia mandi dan makan la tu."

Besuk dia, baru si Ongol mandi dan makan. Masa makan, dia macam khayal-khayal saja. Mengkali dia pikir, mana bagus, belajar ka idup macam urang kampung. Macam bapak dia. Beberapa hari kemudian dia pi kasitau mama dia yang dia mau pi mengulang tingkatan 5.

"Si Ongol kasitau sya dia mau belajar lagi," mama si Ongol kasitau bapak dia.

"Nah, baru dia tau, bukan senang mau jadi urang kampung. Nanti la sya pi jumpa pengetua dan kasi daftar dia," jawab bapak si Ongol.

Bapak dia pi hantar dia di sekula lama dia, pihak sekolah pun terima dia semula. Jadi dia pun meneruskan persekolahan dia dan dia lulus peperiksaan SPM.

Sekarang si Ongol bekerja di Jabatan Kastam Tawau dan dia suda kawin dan ada sorang anak. Kadang-kadang bapak dia ada juga imbas balik cerita ini sama dia, si Ongol hanya mampu senyum dan syukur sebab kalau bapak dia nda bikin begitu mesti dia masi lagi di kampung.

Demikianlah cerita si Ongol!

With Love,
Little Rose

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY ~ I will feed you

2011-09-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

Taken at Kg. Alutok, Ulu Tomani, Tenom

New Gadget ~ Samsung Galaxy Tab (GT-P1000)

2011-09-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

Photo credit to Google Image

I was thinking to have this gadget for on the go work. But i am not sure if this will suits my work. However it have Thinkfree Office (Word, Excel, PowerPoint, PDF) to do some of writings. Is it really can work out well? But the size and weight of this gadget is easier to bring on the move. What say you? Any opinions? Besides it is using OS Android and i heard a lot of my friends saying that this OS is better. Is it?

Photo credit to HP website

At the same time i was thinking to get this mini netbook but i already have my laptop at home. Hmm... Which and which should i go for? Need advice guys!

With Love,
Little Rose

Anak Kampung (Sabahan Songs) ~ NICE!

2011-09-09T13:51:00.002+08:00

Anak Kampung Version Guys (Jimmy Palikat)

Anak Kampung Version Ladies (Ling2x)

Enjoy the song and have a great weekend guys!!

With Love,

Little Rose

Thoughts For FRIDAY

2011-09-09T07:39:00.001+08:00

Never be so FULL OF YOURSELF that YOU CANNOT FEEL the EMPTINESS of ANOTHER....

by Rio Vergini

What says you?

With Love,

Little Rose

New in A Family

2011-09-08T23:13:00.003+08:00

The title sounds interesting right? I get two new born kittens on 7th of September, morning. But today, one of it died. My little hairy friend, Joy deliver two babies that morning. I am super excited that morning when i woke up but when i saw the babies, i am a little bit worried about one of the kitten. Why? Because the hands and feet seems to be not normal. It looks like cripple babies. Yai! I am curious a little bit why this happen? Hmmmph... i am not sure though!

Joy, the morning she deliver her babies (2).

She did not know how to feed her babies. Pity with my cat. I thought it is a natural things for a mother to nurture her babies but seems to be i am wrong. This little friend don't know how to feed its own babies.

On the 8th Afternoon, the little one seems to be restless and waiting for its time..

One of the baby born with some abnormalities. Both hands and legs is not strong and looks like it is cripple. It is a female (i think so). Only feed once in the evening of 7th.

She was dead when i get back from work today.

I didn't given them any name yet. But this little one already left me. But if she survive with this condition, she will not living well. So, it is also a good thing she died. Only hoping for another one to survive.

Only this one left with mommy.

I am still not checking if this one is female or male. Joy still need me to help her feeding her baby. Odoi... how to left her alone at home this weekend? I need to go for some event tomorrow til Sunday. I am worried now.

Anyway, i hope she will survive with her baby. Will give this lil one names if she survive till Monday. Finger cross!

Update on 14th Sept 2011:
Both of my lil kittens dead already. Joy, the mum did not know how to take care of its own youngs. So, both dead by now. Pity lil kittens.

With Love,
Little Rose

Interesting yet Complicated Communities

2011-09-06T23:12:00.000+08:00

Where am i today? I was tracking the people of Kadazan Dusun near Beaufort town. The village along the railway from mile 65 to 66. The population is about 545 people with majority Kadazan Dusun followed by Murut.

On the train to Saliwangan Station

Junction to the Village Head's house

Plank walk to the Village Head's house. It was contribute by the government.

Children come back from school.

Boat is an alternative transport to Beaufort town.

Railway to Saliwangan Station. We walk to Village Head's house.

The Catholic chapel, St. Saimon.

House across the river. They use boat to get to the other side.

Walk follow the railway to reach to mile 66 from 65.

Catch up the 3.00pm train back to Beaufort from mile 66.

Padas river view from the railway.

Interesting stories with the people of this village but still tired to share about it today. Maybe another post. The village is still have a very nice view and the air is refreshing. A nice place to be away from busy town life. Till then!

With Love,

Little Rose

Aerobic Time!!! ~ Back on track!

2011-09-05T19:18:00.001+08:00

I like the steps but yet to follow it... Still need to do some easier steps first.. Will try to do it tomorrow or the day after tomorrow... Yah!!!

So, the day of after tomorrow will learn this steps...Wah.. this is so exciting!
Wanna join me? Come, can do it at home (Just like i did.... he he he)...
Good Luck with your workouts guys! Stay healthy with exercise! Sweat it out!!!

With Love,
Little Rose

I Think ~ Coffee

2011-09-05T09:55:00.000+08:00

Photo credit to Google Image

I need coffee. My brain not working so well this morning. After do some write up, i am stuck, blackout! Yah!!!! I think of black coffee to give me back my brilliant ideas (that is what i thought)... But, really most of the time, coffee did help me. *wink*...

With Love,

Little Rose

About HIM

2011-09-05T00:40:00.001+08:00

Being rough on him recently. Why? Not sure though. It is just a little disappointment when he was MIA for over a week. Sometimes, he is just can not understand me, but i don't want him to understand me because i am simply complicated to be understood. So, i don't mind about it. But, can he just tell me he is alright? He is just doing fine and celebrating raya with his family and friends? I don't bother to know more details of his movements but, still make sure you are in good health. Your mum is doing fine and your friends is doing fine. So, i will not worry.

Still, i can not stand it when he is doing thing like this. MIA again! The first time he was MIA, i can not reach his phone and no news from his friends. During that time, he is actually admitted to the hospital and the worse part i am the last person to know. Another time, he MIA again. He went back home, in rush because his mother fainted. No communication network at his kampong, so MIA again.

So, every time he MIA i will become worried and thinking about bad things happen to him or his family or his friends. But, did he knows that? Told him already but seems to be, it is okay for him to make me worried. Crazy la like this. So, what should i do? Maybe i should put some telemetry chip on his legs/ arms so that i can track him down. Ha ha ha ha... Baru kau tau! Menjejak guna GPS saja. Nah kau!

Okay, enough About Him. Better get some sleep so tomorrow will not become Monday Blues. Back to work Monday!

With Love,
Little Rose

Are You What You Write...?

2011-09-04T15:04:00.000+08:00

Blogging is some kind of a faster growing online personal diaries for people of this world. This same goes for me. I blog about my life, my thoughts, my happiness, my sadness, my frustration, my inspirations, my hobbies etc... Sharing so many things about what is in my mind.

While blogwalking, i find quite an interesting personal blogs. They blog about their daily life, activities, about their families, about their work, about their friends and loved ones, about their relationship with God. So, many to mentioned. Some are really inspiring and some are giving me a chance to reflects their experiences with my own life. But still i wonder, are they really what they write? But, it doesn't matter in this cyber world. Each blogger have their own privacy to talk honestly or create a fake stories to make them feel good and great about life and their surroundings.

As for me, i write what i feel to write. What i have in mind right now, but still i need to put some privacy in my writing. I still feel insecure to be so honest in this blogging world. Still keep some of my stories for myself and my real world.

Somehow, i feel great when i can share my happiness here with my fellow blogger friends. It also decrease my stress when i can burst out my frustration here, i have my dearest blogger buddies to give me some advice and opinion. That is how i make friends with other bloggers. Meet up with a new friends through blogging.

Still, i am what i write, it is my thoughts and my point of view! Till then!

With Love,
Little Rose

SINGLE is NOT a STATUS

2011-09-04T14:46:00.000+08:00

SINGLE is not a status. It's a word that describes a person who is strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on others.....

Quote this from Angel Bear tweet at her blog while i am blogwalking to her blog. All Single Ladies (Guys) out there, do you agree? I put as my FB status and get 7 likes from my friends. As for me, i am still not really get it. It is still depends on yourself, how you want to interpret it right? We have our own point of view in so many things about life. So, let use our own set of thinking to do some reflections. Till then!

Have a blessed Sunday and God bless!

With Love,
Little Rose

Begin the day...

2011-09-02T07:36:00.000+08:00

It is always feel great to begin the day with a SMILE on my face, with a great and peaceful feeling in my heart, with prayer to my Lord and with a positive expactations for the day. It will always feel great to be in a very GOOD MOOD to begin the day.

To start a day with a WORD OF GOD and to listen to Jesus of what He wants me to do for a day. For what i suppose to act for the day.

Of course how this day will become, still depends on my own action. My own attitude towards anything i will face for the day. Will i become a very positive and productive person at work? Will i success in any tasks or assignments that i will work out today? Will, i utilize my time wisely? Will i stop procrastinating? Will i really DO my work? Still... it will all depends to my own action. Don't you agree with me? Maybe? I did not expect you will agree with me because each and every one of us have our own set of thinking, have our own opinion towards life. So, let this be my opinion and how i see it.

With that, i HOPE you will BEGIN YOUR DAY with a SMILE on your FACE, a PEACEFUL HEART and HAVE A PRODUCTIVE & BLESSED DAY!!!! GOD BLESS. (^_____^)

With Love,
Little Rose

Refresh......

2011-08-31T11:35:00.001+08:00

I browse through my main blog at MY CHOICE ~ Walking Through Nature. Read my old posts since 22nd April 2008.

Realize that i did enjoy doing my previous work. Feel blessed of what i have that time. Feel that My Dream Come True. Touched reading my own post on Reflections.

No matter how i plan my life, it will end up not as i planned. Not as how i want it to become. I only plan it but GOD have greater plan for my life.

No matter how hard i try but if it is not right for me, God will not lead me to that path. He will guide me to another path.

But, still there is no harm in planning our life. Not by our own will but with God's Will, it will happen how God want it to be. He always provide us the best because He loves us. Thank you Jesus for guiding me.

With Love,
Little Rose

Selamat Hari Merdeka

2011-08-31T09:51:00.000+08:00

Photo credit to Sarawak Government Portal

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY TO ALL MALAYSIANS

31st AUGUST 2011

.....A DAY TO REMEMBER & CELEBRATE.....

bercelaru

2011-08-30T20:21:00.000+08:00

sakit kepala. pikiran bercelaru. rusak betul sya ni minggu. macam2 ja yang terjadi. kawan cakap jangan pikir sangat. ya, cakap bulih la. otak ni yang nda pandai diam2. sudah sya bilang jangan pikir lagi, balik2 pikir itu jugak. macam manalah. mau share dengan kawan depan mata inda bulih. sudah sya share cerita sama kawan2 yang teda depan mata. sms la facebuk la telepon la tapi nda juga sama rasa sya mau juga kasi lepas geram dengan real person di depan mata ni. begini pula kan rasa. nda sama bah, kalau ko kasi lepas sama orang yang 'real' yang ko boleh tampar2 ka tumbuk2 ka dengan yang setakat tinguk and dingar suara jak. haish... napa la sya ni susah betul mau kasi lepas ni. sakit kepala suda sya ni. migrain mengkali ni, stress pasal terlampau pikir. otak ni pun satu hal, masi juga mau pikir. mau juga rasa huha huha sama kawan2 sini ni bejalan sana sini, raya bah kan ni ari, tapi takut sya terlepas cakap pula. tau ja, mulut nda pandai diam macam sya, susah, nda sedar diri tu kalau bercakap. tercakap juga karang benda yang nda bulih kena cakap.

bah, ari 3 mesti mau pegi gerija la kalau begini ni. nda bulih cakap dengan orang, sya cakap sama Jesus la ni. kasi cerita dengan pado lagi bagus juga. pado jangan kasi cerita sama orang lain kio. bulih bah kan pado. aih, percaya la bah si pado nda cerita sama orang lain tu. yah, jangan la tetiba sya nda mau pegi gerija pula ni ari 3 macam yang ari minggu lalu. penjahat betul sya ni tau. pandai bagi alasan saja. marah Jesus juga kadang2. nah kau, nda tentu suda cerita sya. tu la sya bilang otak sya bercelaru... yahhhh..... kembalikan si Rose. huhuhuhuhu.....

If it's only me.....

2011-08-30T17:23:00.001+08:00

i have many friends but still i feel lonely

i easily make new friends but not good friends

i treasure and love my friends a lot but i hate to be left behind

i can get along with people around me but i might be pretending to be happy

i can smile and laugh at any occasion but sometimes i have burden that i carry

i may get very sensitive and emotional but i have something disturbing my mind

i may quite and serious but it is not that i am thinking hard

I NEED A BREAK!

Selamat Hari Raya

2011-08-30T14:04:00.001+08:00

Photo credit to Google Images

TODAY IS HARI RAYA...

SO, I WANNA WISH ALL MY MUSLIM BLOGGER FRIENDS.....

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI"

HOPE THIS RAYA BRING JOYS AND HAPPINESS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY....

GOD BLESS ALL OF US...

WITH LOVE,

ROSE RAGAI

Secrets......

2011-08-28T16:38:00.001+08:00

Photo credit to GingerxRose

SECRETS. Do you have yours? Your own secrets or your family secrets or your friends secrets or even somebody that you don't know but you being there during the incident? Me? I have mine but most of my secrets is no more secrets because i shared it with my sisters, brothers or even my best friends. Did i keep anything for myself? Hmmm.... i don't think i have one left (ha ha ha... sounds a little but scary when i think about it).

Photo credit to Gadzooks

Did you write down your secrets in your journal or any books that you keep it locked in your mysterious box? I have my secret book with my friends. We kindda share everything inside the book. We wrote all of our secrets inside it and we promise to burnt it out when one of us get married. But, i forgot, where i put that book now. Yai! See, keeping secrets inside the books if you are forgetful like me, better don't.

Photo credit to gyan215

Maybe hiding it inside the bottle without writing your name on the paper and throw it away in the bush or buried it under the ground. Pheww.... Lots of work have to be done though.

So, i prefer to share with friends or my sisters if i can not keep it for myself. If it is too heavy for me to carry it alone.

The BEST person to share my secrets is MY DEAR LORD JESUS CHRIST. He will listen to me and GUIDE me what should i do. Don't you think so? He will keep my secret from anyone else and He will Forgive me if i done wrong because i know He LOVES me so much. Thanks you Jesus.

Have a Blessed Sunday all. God bless. (",)

With Love,
Little Rose

..... Thinking ......

2011-08-27T18:04:00.000+08:00

Photo credit to McFaiild

What did i do?

Am i ignorance?

Why is this happen to someone i know?

still...i can not condemn myself for something like this..

I just do my part....

(It is difficult to express something that you can not say it out loud...)

So, better to put everything in God's hand....

God bless.

..... i am worried

2011-08-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

Photo credit to littledolphin

A fiend of mine, admitted hospital yesterday. She got hypertension. I did not know that she have this illness. A little bit disappointed with myself because i did not take seriously of her condition a few days ago. She did complaint about her dizziness and not feel comfortable with it. Even on Sunday, both of her feet swollen. Since, i did not know that she did have hypertension, i think it is not that serious. So, i only ask her to go for a check up at our nearby clinic. But she refused to do so. Until yesterday, she almost fainted but she arrived hospital at KK safely. Today she still under doctor observation at Intensive Care Unit. She have minor surgery to help reduce her blood pressure.

Somehow, i am still worried about her. I can not do much from a far, if i am by her side i still can comfort her. But for this distance, i only can pray for her. Asking God to help her to get through this critical situation. To keep her strong to survive this. To keep strong her family members and be able to support and comfort her. I will visit her this Saturday after work. My only hope is she will recover soon. May God bless her.

Photo credit to perodog

With Love,
Little Rose

What is my nature of work? CSR?

2011-08-24T22:58:00.002+08:00

Ever heard of Corporate Social Responsibility or CSR? Me, myself get to know CSR only when i get an interview for this job about two years ago. I have no idea what is this career. Is it something new to Malaysia? Hmmm... i think it is not so new but yet the approach and understanding about CSR in Malaysia is different from other countries out there. The practice is different here.

I am not a sociologist or anthropologist but i am a conservationist by my bachelor degree. Working in conservation field for about three years before move to this new career, CSR. So, it has been two years seven months i am working in this new field.

What is actually attract me when i decided to change my career path? Because CSR is something to do with helping people to change the way of their life by providing them skills, opportunities and build a self dependent communities. Is it tough job to do? YES, it is a tough task. Why? Because our people have so many providers out there to provide subsidy fund, infrastructure, etc. Our government launch many schemes to help poor people to help them to eradicate poverty in this country. Is it really work? Is it really helping our people to survive? Is it really sustainable approach to do? Bare in mind, once our people was called a "subsidy communities". Rely too much for government support to survive? Maybe?

However, the trend is change bit by bit now. The private company's start to learn more new things about CSR approach. Guess what? This is a very GOOD NEWS because the CHANGE of our communities mind set and attitudes will increase. So, we can have the INDEPENDENT COMMUNITIES rather than a subsidy communities.

Okay, am i talk rubbish here? Nope, i try my best to talk about something more important than just rants about my frustration at work. So, that's it for now. Hope this will help some people to understands that i am no longer working inside the bush, i am working with the people of the forest... mmmmm... sounds still related to the bush right? Ah.... it's okay, i don't mind about that. I MUST HAPPY with my call, to work with the PEOPLE. Till then! God bless.

With Love,
Little Rose

Another Inspiring Guy!

2011-08-23T18:26:00.002+08:00

I feel down after work yesterday. Piss off and so demotivated. Went back home and trying to cool down. When i browse through You Tube i found this video, Korea's Got Talent. He inspired me and i feel blessed for who i am. He is unfortunate but yet he really work hard to get through all the obstacles in his life. He did make my tears fall down. Hope you get inspired by him too. Watch this video if you have some spare time. GOD BLESS US ALL!

my 400th post...........

2011-08-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

Will not saying much words.... Just want to share these three clip videos for my 400th posts today. These three songs from three different artists with all catchy and meaningful lyrics. Enjoy the songs!

New Layout ~ Again?

2011-08-20T09:56:00.000+08:00

Me? Always love to change things. I easily get bored so i change again. In my previous posts i did mentioned about CHANGE; my office table position that i change recently and also i did rants about People's Change. So today i change my blog layout theme again. I am not sure if this will become my last changes or i will change it again in near future (if i get bored with the colour and widgets and so on).

For this present layout, i just love chocolate colour. Not sure why, but it is the earth colour. The previous one is black and white theme but after a while i did not really like it though. So, i change.

How about you? Do you always stick to your blog layout or you frequently change? Just like me.. Hmmmm.... Till then!

With Love,
Little Rose

Still Stuck in the Middle of Nowehere...

2011-08-20T09:21:00.003+08:00

I am suppose to finish on preparing the complete action plan for my projects for the year 2011 - 2012 but yet, i am STUCK. My brain did not do much of work for these past two weeks.

I have so many things come up in my mind but yet i don't know how to put it together on the paper. How to organize it well accordingly. People tend to say, 'PLAN YOUR WORK, WORK YOUR PLAN'... If i did not do my plan i will not know where will be my project heading too. To SUCCESS or to FAIL? Somehow, if i am too much on planning, will i manage to WORK OUT my PLAN later? In term of planning, i have a very high expectations and sometimes i know it sounds impossible to reach for it, but still i am a little bit of a DREAMER... Yai! Till then!

With Love,
Little Rose

Update:
Currently i am working on my plan on my Socio-Economic Development for the rural communities. I have two projects consists of Handicraft Development and Medicinal & Aromatic Plants Project. Still stuck at Handicraft Development and not even start with the Medicinal & Aromatic Plants projects yet. God help me....

Me & My Work ~ Blessings in Disguise

2011-08-19T10:22:00.000+08:00

Recently i feel i am blessed because i have the chance to serve the communities. I do complaint and disappointed sometimes, but at the end, still i think this is a blessings to me.

If i think i am doing this work for my good names, good salary, good position, i will not feel this blessings upon me. I must think and do this for the GLORY of my GOD. To make people known that i am bringing good NEWS in any way of my action towards them. I serve JESUS and i see JESUS when i work with these people (supposed to be like that but sometimes my humanly/ worldly thoughts took away all these graces and i became very negative person. For that i pray to GOD for HIS guidance and to always WALK with me).

Women making handicraft. I learn how to make it from them.

An old woman planting paddy.

Women group learn how to do the documentation.

Preparing rattan.

Childrens playing at the hill paddy field.

Still enjoying the freshness of the water in the rocky river.

With Love,
Little Rose

People's Change......

2011-08-15T02:36:00.000+08:00

I don't believe in this for so long. I always believe when i am good with people around me, treat them well and nice, trying not to break any promises and do not do anything that break their heart. They will never change in any way of our friendships and as far as i am trying to keep the friendship, they will do the same too. Sound innocent am i?

To share my story here. Having one bestfriend during secondary school. We are really close shared all the happy and sad moments together. If anyone hurt me, she will stand for me. She will trying her very best to protect me. Such a very nice friend right? She is really my Guardian Angel. She woke me up in the morning because she know i will be late for breakfast if she is not doing it. I cried a lot missing my parents at home and i can say i am still a crybaby when i am in secondary school. She did her best to cheer me up. I will do the same for her. But i did a very bad/ worse thing to our friendship without noticing it really break her hurts. I am CHANGE because i found someone new. Because this new friend trying her very best to keep me away from my bestfriend and the worst thing is, i did not know it. Fool me because being so "lurus bendul". After a while this new friend abandon me and i am alone. My bestfriend hurt a lot and our friendship is not restored. I lost my very best buddy in high school because of my own foolishness. We still friend but there is no way we get close as before. The situation is so awkward for both of us even though we did forgive each other. So, after this incidence, i was trying my very best to treasure my bestfriend. Trying to be with them when they need me, trying to console them when they faced a hard time, will shared with them tears and joy. Trying not to CHANGE because i hurt my precious besfriend in high school because i CHANGE.

But, this is not true indeed. If i am not CHANGE, my friend will CHANGE. That is life. People will change though times. Through their environment. I lost quite a few of my best buddies. Why? Because of time and space. FB, Email, SMS, phone calls, the borderless world..... technology is nothing if there is no efforts to use it. If it is only one sided love, will the marriage become happiness marriage? If it is only me trying to keep the friendship but the other side is not doing anything? It will not work. So, i lost contact with some of my best buddies because they did not replied me they did not inform me they move or change their phone numbers.

So, what left for me now? LIFE GOES ON. The memories with them remain with me even though we did not contact each other anymore. Thank GOD for giving me the opportunity to get to know them and spend some part of my life with them. May God protect them and His blessings always be with them.

Till then! God bless.

With Love,
Little Rose

True Confession #6 - Being COMPLICATED

2011-08-12T16:24:00.000+08:00

Did you ever feel that you are being complicated in everything? In your relationship with your parents, siblings, friends, boyfriend/girlfriend, co-workers or even strangers? Me? Yes, i did feel that sometimes i was the one that always making things so complicated. Until one day i realize, why i did it that way, this way and why not make things simple and people can easily understands me. Therefore, there will no misunderstanding and we can cooperate easily. But somehow, life will not so exciting right? Ha ha ha... When i wanted my life to be interesting and exciting, i think i did hurts others feeling. Break their heart for what i did, maybe without noticing it.

When it goes to work and study.. I am as complicated as ever too. Tried to make my work simple and workable, but still i think it is so complicated. My study also the same. I thought it simple at the beginning but at the end, i think it is so difficult and complicated.

Can i become more simple person and live my life easy and not complicated anymore? As long as i give others love and the love sure comes back to me. Can i?

With Love,
Little Rose

Thought of the Day ~ Quitting

2011-08-12T07:35:00.000+08:00

" Quitting is the easiest way out of any problem but unluckily it doesn't settle the problem. So, the moral of the story is to settle a problem first before quitting so that someone else doesn't have to pick up the pieces."

~ Allen Ng --- Singapore

RR thoughts:

How may times i have done this? Quit? A few times and it is really disappointing and worse things to do. Is it the same with give up?

Tired of numbers and sleepy...

2011-08-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

Since morning i am doing the checking of our projects expenditure. It's 1452 hrs now and i am tired of those numbers and makes me sleepy. So, log in to my blog and write something here to be away for awhile from these numbers. Actually it was since i yesterday, after i sit back on my sit in the office after one week break.

Do i like numbers? Not to say LIKE but it is okay for me. Not to say hate but i am doing fne with numbers. In high school i love Modern Mathematic but not so with the Additional Maths. I took Principal Account (Prinsip Akaun) in high school and also during my uiversity year. Trying to become one of those accountants but nope, this is not for me. I get irritated when my ledger never balance. So, i know that i will not doing well as an accountant.

But today, i have to do something related to account or i may say MONEY. Wah.. i wish this is my money but nope, it is company's money.. Huaaa... I am just doing the calcutation. Ha ha ha ha..

Okay, i think i need to get back to work, since my eyes is no longer tired and sleepy. I am ready to get back to see those numbers. Till Then!!!

With Love,
Little Rose

Disappointed Vs. Grateful

2011-08-09T00:17:00.001+08:00

I am suppose to be HAPPY but yet feel lonely and upset inside. Why? Maybe i am expecting too much. Expecting things happen as i think it should be. But yet, i forgot that it will never happen as perfect as i wish it to be happen. Why? Because some things happen for a reason. Some things happen how God want it to happen. The lists that i wish should be happen last week:

Having "Sahur" on the 1st Ramadhan with my brother's family.
See and playing with my wonderful six nieces and nephews (3 never met yet).
Attending Mass on the celebration of St. Ignatius feast at St. Ignatius Church with my brother.
Bring my father to St. Bernard and having a chit chat with Father in charge there.
Did not meet my eldest sister when i am at home.
Walking at Carpenter's Street at Kuching Waterfront and buying some souvenirs for friends.
Celebrating my friend's birthday with the cake that i bought for her.
Having some more foods in Kuching, still not enough of Laksa Kuching, Mi Kolok, KuehChap etc...

But still i am grateful that some did happen:

Meet up with my long lost friends at KL and stay at one of their house (spending my time with her).
Attending Mass at St. John Cathedral at KL and thank you Jesus for Your presence.
Walking at Jln TAR & SOGO, finding some 'tudung' and 'phasmina' for my sisters & friends.
Spend one night with my sister and three of her children at Sibu. Have chance to cook chicken curry for them (berbuka puasa).
Spend two days with my parents at home (kampong) and my niece. Even though for only two days, i am really grateful that i am going back and this makes me regret that i did not going straight back home instead of flying to KL and Kuching.
Spend one night with my other sister at Sibu. Waiting for her at ICU Ward reminds me of my student's years when i always waiting for her at various wards (Orthopedic, Female Medical, Labour Room, ICU...). Waiting for her to finish her shift and we went back to her house.
Meet up with my friend at Kuching and be able to see her son.
Attend Sunset Mass at St. Joseph Cathedral, Kuching with one of my long lost friend (never met her since 2004). Thank you Jesus for Your presence. Be able to buy some souvenir at church souvenir shop.

Looks like, it is equal. 8 - 8. So no regrets i am going home. Till then! God bless.

With Love,

Little Rose

Heaven Knows

2011-07-28T08:12:00.000+08:00

Just a little song to be shared peeps. I love listen to this song and am listening it right now. But the version that i listen to is Carol Banawa version not Rick. So, just search in You Tube and you will find it anyway. Happy Listening!!!

She's always on my mind

From the time I wake up,

Till I close my eyes.

She's everywhere I go

She's all I know.

And though she's so far away,

It just keeps getting stronger everyday

And even now she's gone

I'm still holding on

So tell me, where do I start

'Coz it's breakin' my heart

Don't wanna let her go

Chorus:

Maybe my love will come back someday

Only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find a way

But only heaven knows

And all I can do is hope & pray

'Coz heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me

That if you really love her,

You've gotta set her free

And if she returns in time

I'll know she's mine

But tell me, where do I start

'Coz it's breakin' my heart

Don't wanna let her go

(Repeat Chorus except last line)

Bridge:

'Coz heaven knows

Why I live in despair

'Coz wide awake or dreamin',

I know she's never there

And all the time I act so brave,

I'm shakin' inside

Why does it hurt me so?

(Repeat Chorus)

Heaven knows... heaven knows.

Thursday Morning Blues

2011-07-28T08:02:00.000+08:00

Good morning everyone!

I am excited for my one week holiday next week but still i have a few things to be settled. This makes my Thursday morning is in blues. I don't want to take my work home and i don't want to worry about my plants and my pets. I just want to have great time with friends and family. Can i? Hmmmph... it's all deepends on myself. How i manage everything before i leave here.

Anyway, hope you guys did not have blues like me toady. Hope you still have a productive day at work. Take care and God bless!

Cheers!
Little Rose

....(No Title is a Title)....

2011-07-24T12:25:00.001+08:00

It's Sunday. I was prepare myself to attend Mass at church this morning. Grab my mobile phone and before leavingcheck if there is any call or SMS that i missed. Arh.. two SMSs. Read it through and i get LOVE SMS from my bos. Hmmphh.. still i did not complete one last task that she asks me to do. Seems to be she is already mad at me. Admit it, it is my fault. My own weaknesses that i can not do my own work.

So, decided to cancel my plan to attend church. Instead of heading to church, i am heading to the office. Most of the data is in my desktop so i can not do it at home using my lap top. Get my unfinished document from lap top, save it in my pen drive, grab my mobile phone and purse with house keys, car keys and almost forgot office keys. Heading to office.

Arrive office and lucky bos is not here. I will peacefully doing my work. Need some light breakfast before start. Boil water and while waiting, switch on my desktop and log in. Search for some documents that i need. Yah.. all is here.

Make black nescafe and drink it with some bisquits i brought along from home.

Now, i am half way my work. Break for 10 minutes and write this post in my blog.

Hope you guys having a great and Blessed Sunday (not like me stuck in the office)...

Okay, continue writing my assignment! God bless!

With Love,
Little Rose

I am still awake.....

2011-07-23T02:23:00.000+08:00

It's already 2.17 am. My eyes still wide open. I am suppose to write my report but yet my brain can not working. But still i have to utilize this remaining time to complete this task.

Where to start? It's already half way, about 50% complete but i am not in the mood of doing this. How to push me and give my last efforts to complete this? I am just wasting my time FB-ing and BLOG-ing...

If my working style is keeping this way, i may get fired from my big boss. No company want to waste their money with lazy employees like me. Huhuhu... How come i become like this? I always complete my work before the due date but now, the due date is over and my work is still hanging on the bridge. Waiting to fall down the rocky streams. Yaiks! What happen to me? Sad... sad... sad... a like this.