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| Our photo during the dinner |
I’ve been having some tough moments since last week. My mind isn’t in the right place, and I feel like I’m slowly sinking into a dark hole again. Negative thoughts are bombarding my mind with harsh affirmations. I’ve been trying hard to come back to the surface. During our Annual Dinner on Friday night, I attempted to capture a photo of myself and my colleague drowning in a glass of water (see above). Looking back, that’s exactly how I feel – drowning in the negative emotions surrounding me.
Last night, I felt alone and as if nobody cared about me. A deep sadness washed over me, making me feel neglected and abandoned by everyone. In the end, I cried and sobbed. What is actually happening? What are the triggers? What is the root cause of all these emotions suddenly surfacing?
I decided to practice the butterfly method my therapist taught me. While doing the tapping, I repeated affirmations like, “I am loved, I am enough, I am worthy, I am kind, I am amazing, I am precious.” It was difficult because I kept sobbing, but I persevered, knowing I need to get through this episode. I want peace of mind, peace of heart, and restful sleep.
After finishing with deep breathing and prayers, I tried to sleep. I played the "Songs of Mary" playlist, and finally, I fell asleep. Thank you, Lord.
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