My PTSD Journey - Part 2

My therapist is a woman, and she is very helpful and understanding. I still remember that in our first meeting, she told me this. 

This is not just about me; this is about you, and you will have to do the hard work. Remember, you're not alone in this journey. I am here to listen and guide you, and many others have faced similar struggles and come through stronger.

I agreed, and we started to list out what my main goal is for this therapy that I am undergoing with her. 'We will make sure you graduate,' she said. I trust her, and we start my journey to untangle all the knots and dig into the roots of my issue, which has helped me improve my relationships and manage stress better.

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Yes, it is a very bumpy road that I went through for those few months. At some point, I felt like giving up because unwrapping the wounds was painful and revisiting the past was hard. The memories and experiences I tried to sweep under the carpet now had to be brought to light. But I want you to know that if you're going through something similar, this process is worth it, and you're not alone in facing these challenges. Healing takes time, and that patience is part of the journey. 

The stigma at my workplace about people seeing a psychiatrist as a 'crazy' person actually scares me. But my therapist affirms that seeking professional help is a courageous act. Listening to her words of encouragement and affirmations gave me the strength to show up for all my appointments with her. 

This is my take-home message for those out there who struggle with mental health:

1. You are not alone. 
2. Take the first step to seek help, and it is okay to not be okay. 
3. The pain we dealt with in the process is a healing in progress. 
4. We are fighters, and we will never give up hope!

With love and prayers!

Rose 🌹

BOOK: The Wounded Healer by Henri Nouwen

 

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During my session with my therapist on February, 4, we talked about this book. I am aware of this priest which have quite a lot of published books but i did not know about this particular one. This made me wonder, so i look-up on the internet and found it in Book Depository site. I create an account in Book Depository and added this book in my wish list. I would love to buy this book and read it in future. At present, i am still not in the mood of reading anything. I feel numb and blurred. 

This is a snippet about this book: 

In this book, Henri Nouwen combines creative case studies of ministry with stories from diverse cultures and religious traditions in preparing a new model for ministry. Weaving keen cultural analysis with his psychological and religious insights, Nouwen has come up with a balanced and creative theology of service that begins with the realization of fundamental woundedness in human nature. Emphasizing that which is in humanity common to both minister and believer, this woundedness can serve as a source of strength and healing when counseling others.

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He is a great man with a great wisdom. He is a saint to be, God willing. 

Blessings, 

Little Rose

Sarawak, Borneo
   

Books ~ Healing the Heart of Emotional Wounds

I have read many books about healing these past few months.My heart is not in a very peaceful state. I always feel sad, depress and bitterness against others. Been attended a few seminars and retreat to figure out what happen to me.

Recently i read this book and while i read through this book, i find out i have a pride in me that makes me think i did nothing wrong. My attitude toward others and there is nothing wrong with my action to them. This part of this book tell me something about me.

Take Responsibility For Your Behaviour
We behave in unhealthy and compulsive ways because of the wounds we recieved in the battle of life, either as children or later, or again, because we grew up in a particular culture. Yet the present behaviour is ours, not of our parents or of a faceless culture. If we do not take responsibility for this, that is, admit that we are the ones who behave thus, we will continue to play the game of blamming. Instead of using our energy for changing ourselves, we will waste it.

I am aware now that i must take responsibility of my behaviour. Not only that, this is the test for me to humble myself and being humble is what Jesus teach me. Humilty, Humility, Humility. 

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Humble Myself,
Rossa