Anger II

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It feels like to kill someone (it's the worst!) with a very sharp blade and make that person struggle to death. Or punch straight on their face and makes their eyes swollen like a ball. Or kill them slowly with poison so i can watch them died in a very suffering way. Mock them as if they are the most unwanted person in this world.

Well, that's came in my thoughts when i get annoyed or angry or pissed off by someone whether it is at home, at work or on the road. I am no saint, i am an ordinary person with the most terrible emotions at time. 

Be patience, let God do His work.

I always hear this from a friend. Time will tell, God will show you who is right, who is wrong. But, my question is, WHEN? I have no patience when anger controlled me. However, i thank God for keep people with faith by my side. So, i will never doing something stupid that show how stupid i am by acting like a crazy woman. 

My advice, control your anger. Keep your faith stronger with God by surrounds yourself with faithful people. They are the most inspiring instruments of God that keep you sane not insane. Have a good week ahead!

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Faithful, 

Little Rose

Being Myself

Did you ever question yourself, WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE IN THIS LIFE? I did not think much about it anymore like i was in the past few years before. Why? Because i think there is no point for me to think too much about it anymore. I am in my early 3 series age already, so i know where i am heading now. 

God created me and i must have a purpose to be in this world. I discover one of my gift. To bring happiness and joy in others life. To see smiles in someone else face. But somehow, even though it sounds easy and simple, but yet very difficult to make it my daily practices. What is your purpose? 

I give this comment to my friend in my FB, kinda giving her advice:

"some people say, i don't have focus in life, some ppl say, i am crazy, some people say, i did not think of future, some ppl say.. bla bla bla... i don't really care anymore what ppl say sis. i live my life as long as i know i am doing what is right and i live it to the fullest and did not waste it for regretting that i had done nothing with my life.. he he he... not a wise advice for you but, sometime we need a change. follow your heart and God will show u the way."

That is me today. After some struggles along the way to mould me become who i am today. Don't stop being yourself. You can listen to people around you, especially your family and friends but don't forget some criticism from your so-called 'enemy' which you need to take it seriously too. They are our mirror, reflects of what we do.

Ok, last but not least, just be yourself. Don't be a pretender or hypocrites because it will take away your shining star that make you unique in your own way. The way that actually God created you in this world. To make this world a better place to live. Each and everyone of us have purpose to be here.

Unique,
Little Rose

#01 - January Mission

I am On a Mission

"Life Quotes Facebook Cover"

It may sounds funny but i feel like wants to make just a little action which perhaps can make little impacts to my circle of family and friends in my Facebook account. I have 957 friends in my FB. Well, probably not even 30% aware of my action by changing my FB cover photos every morning. However, i am good with it because, i did not means to attract them but we never know, whose heart will be touched or in need of word of encouragement that very day right? 

Here is some of the FB cover photos that i use since 7th January 2014.

Life Quotes,

Little Rose

To Stay Positive.... Have Faith and Believe

To stay positive in thoughts and actions require a great strength. The person must be very high self-esteem and very confident with his own stands or views of life. However, there is still a moments when life treats you bad, the negative thoughts came in and emotions may break down.

I am not a very strong person, physically and mentally. But somehow, my bestfriend keep on telling me that "You are a strong person. You can do it. If others believe and can see that you can do this, you must believe in yourself too". 

The words of encouragements from people around me especially the person that really care about me give me strength. I believe they are God's instruments and that is how He answer my prayers when i ask for strength when i feel so weak and hopeless.

Dear Lord, thank you for your bountiful love for me and for those who care and loved me. Have mercy on us that we are sinful. Amen. 

Blessed Sunday, 
Little Rose

Practice Humility ~ Mother Teresa

“These are the few ways we can practice humility: 

To speak as little as possible of one's self. 

To mind one's own business. 

Not to want to manage other people's affairs. 

To avoid curiosity. 

To accept contradictions and correction cheerfully. 

To pass over the mistakes of others. 

To accept insults and injuries. 

To accept being slighted, forgotten and disliked. 

To be kind and gentle even under provocation. 

Never to stand on one's dignity. 

To choose always the hardest.” 

― Mother Teresa, 

The Joy in Loving: A Guide to Daily Living

Smile and the World will smile back to you

“Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.”

― Mother Teresa

Do you believe that when you smile to others, just anyone that you meet on street while you walking that you will make up their day? Do you believe that, when you give smile to your friends, they will feel warm inside...? Do you believe that when you smile to your brothers and sisters, you will give them more of your love? Do you believe that when you smile at your parents, you give them so much joy and happiness in their heart? Do you believe in only this small act of love, you really bring a big difference in others life? 

If you ask me... I DO BELIEVE. Because when people smile at me, i feel so warm. I feel someone passing me some love and if i feel so down that day, when someone smile at me, i will smile back to them and it really makes my day. 

So, just don't become so stingy and don't want to share your sweetest smile with others. Share your joy and love with others because you never know that you has saved someone's life. 

Till then! 

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Smiling Angel,

Little Rose

I just want to be HAPPY

You want to be HAPPY? Anyone want to be HAPPY right? I want to be HAPPY. Happy in anything, everything that comes along the way. Happy to be who i am.. accept myself for who i am and be happy about it. Happy with my family even though there is so many obstacles or problems happen in my family. Accept all of it, for what it is. See all the little things that makes me smile, my mum laughter, my dad farting, my sisters jokes, my nieces and nephews naughtiness, SMILE and just be Happy.

Life will be filled with so much joy and happiness when i start to see all the little things that make me smile and when i smile, i know deep down in my heart, i am Happy about it.

Be HAPPY guys!

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Just be Happy, 
Little Rose

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No words to explain because i am not sure what is actually happen to me these past weeks. So many things happen and i am yet an ignorance again. I don't know where is actually my boat is heading, seems to be i am almost lost the direction again. Or maybe i am sinking in this sea of life again?

*SIGH*

I almost crash into an accident last Friday and today i receive bad news from home. My cousin commit suicide. Family matters maybe, not sure why he decide to drink that herbicide which maybe he think that is the easiest way to end his life and solve the problem. Did you ever think to do that when you are in serious difficulties or depression? Whatever problem that we face will never can better solved by commit suicide. (But, sometimes i admit, that thought ever cross my mind but i am grateful when Jesus save my life and foremost my SOUL). My cousin family face so many things already, his mum (my aunt) passed away end of last year, his brother-in-law (his sister's husband) also commit suicide last year with the same method, his dad passed away a few years back. Hmmmph.... I sure aunt's soul is still wandering on this earth asking for prayers and she want to rest in peace.

Admit life is complicated when i try to handle it with my own strength, but life will be much more easier when i put all my worries in God's hands. He is the Providence and full of Mercy & Grace.

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No thoughts is a thought!
Little Rose

My Heart

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Broken Heart,

Little Rose

New Job?

When something goes wrong on the current job, at that moment we feel like wanted to quit and get out from that office. "Something wrong" means something that against our principal and the work that we done is not seems to be on the track that it should be done anymore. But, from what i observed and when i talk with friends, it is not always 'the job' that makes people pissed off or quit job. It is always people we work with whether it is our superior, sub-ordinates or other people which connected to our work. It is always 'people' and rarely 'job' especially when we have passion in that job.

However, when we successfully get the 'new job', and after sometimes, that new job become an 'old job' and something is not right again, the cycles seems to be continues. We will look for another 'new job'. So, what is actually the 'new job' because a new job is always turn into an old job and pissed us off?

So, what i can see is that, adapt to the new job well, adapt to new working scenario, adapt with the people around us, stick to our own work ethics, trying our best to achieved our goal in our job/work, practice not to complain about our boss, our co-workers but trying our best to manage the issues wisely and be brave to face the problems and the people which we have issue with. Never be afraid of our boss but always respect our boss. hmmmph... that is what i thought but all in all i still learn to practice some of it. Always easy to say it but very difficult to turn it into action. Yai!!!

How about you?

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Work with heart,
Little Rose    

Journey...

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Do you know where are you heading? 

Do you have any plan for it? 

Do you have compass in your hand which directed your direction? 

Are you sure it will lead you where you wanted to go? 

Along the journey, what did you find? 

Anything along the journey that break your heart?

Fill your heart with so much laughter and joy?

What is actually your Journey in this Life? 

This journey leads you to one destination.... 

Back to your Creator in Heaven!

Be grateful of life which has been given unto you. 

Have a Blessed Lent!

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Grateful,

Little Rose

.... when i start to BELIEVE

As you all know, i always talk about my work with the local communities (did i mentioned that in my previous post.....? errr..maybe i did). It was a really difficult task when i need to gain trust from them at the first attempt to the village. I find it was so difficult to make them understand what i told them or what i teach them. Anything that i told them i need to repeat more than 10 times (bengap sangat ka dorang ni...??) because they are very slow in understand things.

With this attitude, i did not believe they can do well in the capacity building programmes that we arrange for them. Leadership, women empowerment, skills enhancement etc... Take months and months for them to get the concept and the learning process is really make me piss off and i am sort of giving up with these people. I lost my faith in them, i did not believe they can make it in future.

Recently, i realize something is going on with myself and these communities. It was almost 4 months i did not visit them (actually i need to monitor their progress every month). So, during the visit, i was SURPRISE!!! Surprise seeing them manage themselves very well. The women group manage their group very well with the consistent monthly income and even the group revolvng fund also increase. The elders (male) support this women group whole heartedly. WOW!!! I am really impressed with all the changes and improvements!

With this i start to reflects on my self, how is actually i see them? How i treat them? How my perspective is biased? How i look down on their capabilities?  .....

How can they make it if i don't believe that they will change? The first and main thing i must do even before i start working with these communities was BELIEVE THAT THEY WILL BE ABLE TO CHANGE THEIR LIFE! CHANGE THEIR ATTITUDES FOR BETTER FUTURE FOR THEIR YOUNG GENERATIONS! I MUST BELIEVE AND HAVE FAITH IN THEM!

The feeling now is different for me. I feel no more burden within me when i faced them. Why? Because i start to believe in them and believe in myself that we can work things together to make a different in their communities.

THANK GOD FOR THIS GIFT OF LIFE JOURNEY!

With Love,
Little Rose
  

Giving VALUE to myself....

Did you ever face a problem valuing yourself? Especially when people ask, "What is your inner strength? What is your value? What is your personal qualities?"....  I find it is difficult for me to see any good values in myself. Why? Maybe because i am the one who look down on my own personalities and did not given any values of myself.

I find it is very difficult for me to write any good things about myself when i write my resume or curriculum vitae. Especially when i need to write about my personal qualities (mau pi promote yang diri tu bagus bah kan so la susah ni..). If people compliment me of my good work or my look that day, i feel grateful and appreciate it but at the same time i feel ashamed of myself. Maybe too low self-esteem. Need to gain some more self-confident and self-esteem la like this.

Okay, i find this article is very motivating and i hope it will help you guys too if you face the same problem as mine. I am in the process of accepting myself of who i am and be grateful of it. Giving VALUE to myself!

Consider the following acts of personal acknowledgment: 

You know your boundaries and you hold them. If necessary, you enforce them. And you keep the delicate balance between boundaries that are too rigid or too flexible. 

You routinely ask yourself, "What do I need? What do I want?" Then you act on the answers to those questions. 

If you experience moments of doubt, you solicit outside feedback. You ask friends and colleague to tell you about your strengths. 

You think well of yourself. If you (or your inner critic) make unkind statements, you disregard them. This is different than reflecting on what worked and didn't work in a given situation, finding out that you've hurt someone's feelings or deciding to do something differently in the future. People who value themselves are not perfect — they do make mistakes and harbor human blindspots.

Read more about this article at Give Yourself the Gift of Value by Claudette Rowley. 

So value yourself — it's universally beneficial. <--------- i think i really and MUST DO THIS!!!! 

Lets give ourself a GIFT OF VALUE guys!!!

With Love,

Little Rose

When i Trying to Hate Someone.....

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I HATE YOU! 

Is the three words that more difficult to said out loud in front of a person that annoying me or hurts me. Why? Because the consequences after saying that is more hurting deep inside my heart. I will keep on blaming myself for saying a words like that to the person. Blaming myself for not control my own emotions, anger and blurt out those three words that for sure will hurt her or him the most. The worse part is when i regret of saying it in the first place. Why did i say it to her or him? It will takes more time to forgive myself for doing this to a person. So, that is why it is hard for me to say I HATE YOU out loud to a person. It will be easier to say I LOVE YOU rather than I HATE YOU. 

With Love,

Little Rose

P.s: Sharing some LOVE with all of you who read this post! I LOVE YOU GUYS!

When I am Almost Give Up....

When i am thinking of GIVING UP...

This thoughts came by

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Came by the negative thoughts again....

Makes me wanna give up and stop this here... 

Enough with it! But...

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Just like a Football Games... the second half is still there..

The final whistle is not blow yet! There is still TIME left..

But... i am tired of doing it... Its really suffocate me.. 

But... there is a says...

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At the end...

TRYING MY BEST NOT TO GIVE UP 

but

TO KEEP ON GOING!

With Love,

Little Rose

Demotivate

How many times in  a year you have this feeling? DEMOTIVATE..... In your work, study, business etc. In many ways we are human lol and for sure this feeling will come by when something come along our way. The people we are work with, the management, the suppliers, the teachers, the education systems etc will somehow affect us in so many ways too. One of it, demotivate.

I Google the meaning of this word just to make sure i got it right, so according to Macmillan Dictionary (Online) this word is a verb define as to make someone lose their enthusiasm and interest. So, i got it right then! I hope so. :-)

Most of the time i get demotivate about my work. Maybe you also face the same thing as well when things are not well at work. I plan, i take action, i work hard to get the results but sometimes it end up stuck somewhere because of some problems that i can not solve (because it is not my jurisdiction to do so). So, end up, i feel like giving up and let it be like that. No more enthusiasm, no more interest about that work. Better to let go? Or run away? Arghhh... i already told myself i will not run away from problem anymore but at certain point when that problem is like a huge mountain (just like Mount Kinabalu) and i don't have the strentgh to fight over it, better to step back and walk away! 

Did i rants something that not making sense to you this early in the morning guys? If i do, i feel sorry about it! Started my day with not so good word to begin with but anyway, i just want to express it out here.

Anyway, Hope you guys have a productive day at work, at school, at business and in whatever you do. BE STRONG and STAND STRAIGHT! Till then! God bless.

With Love,
Little Rose

Monday Morning Motivation

Morning dear friends. Did you find Monday morning is a bit slow (blurr...) because of this is the beginning of the week. Aha! Yesterday was my off day, the day to rest at home. Saturday.... naaa... i am working half day. So, it is only Sunday as my off day! Yai!

Anyway, lets find some motivation to begin our day today! I need it to boost up some positive energy to begin my day! Lets read some funny motivational story about An Old Man, A Boy and A Donkey.

The boy rode on the donkey and the old man walked. As they went along, they passed some people who remarked, "it was a shame the old man was walking and the boy was riding." The man and the boy thought maybe the critics were right, so they changed positions.


Later, they passed some people who remarked, "What a shame, he makes that little boy walk." They decided they both would walk!


Soon they passed some more people who thought they were stupid to walk when they had a decent donkey to ride. So they both rode the donkey!


Now they passed some people that shamed them by saying, "how awful to put such a load on a poor donkey."


The boy and man said they were probably right so they decided to carry the donkey. As they crossed a bridge, they lost their grip on the animal and he fell into the river and drowned.


Lesson: If you try to please everyone, you will eventually lose your ass.

Ha ha ha...! How do you find it? It is funny but we must learn something through it right? So, moral of the story stop pleasing everyone. Just do our work accordingly and put things right! Have a productive day and God bless ya all!

With Love,
Little Rose

Another Inspiring Guy ~ Chris Medina

Visit AngelBear blog just now and read her post on What Are Words.... So, i give my time to watch and listen to Chris Medina song which he dedicated to her fiancee, Juliana. This is really a touching story. I will not comments much on this, you may spend some time, to search for Chris Medina & Juliana in You Tube. For sure you will find a lot about their stories.

Will share another video shows the progress of Juliana recovery here too. Not many will do what he is doing. Lets get inspired by him. He is an Angel send by God to Juliana.

God bless!

With Love,
Little Rose

Begin the day...

It is always feel great to begin the day with a SMILE on my face, with a great and peaceful feeling in my heart, with prayer to my Lord and with a positive expactations for the day. It will always feel great to be in a very GOOD MOOD to begin the day.

To start a day with a WORD OF GOD and to listen to Jesus of what He wants me to do for a day. For what i suppose to act for the day.

Of course how this day will become, still depends on my own action. My own attitude towards anything i will face for the day. Will i become a very positive and productive person at work? Will i success in any tasks or assignments that i will work out today? Will, i utilize my time wisely? Will i stop procrastinating? Will i really DO my work? Still... it will all depends to my own action. Don't you agree with me? Maybe? I did not expect you will agree with me because each and every one of us have our own set of thinking, have our own opinion towards life. So, let this be my opinion and how i see it.

With that, i HOPE you will BEGIN YOUR DAY with a SMILE on your FACE, a PEACEFUL HEART and HAVE A PRODUCTIVE & BLESSED DAY!!!! GOD BLESS. (^_____^)

With Love,
Little Rose

Refresh......

I browse through my main blog at MY CHOICE ~ Walking Through Nature. Read my old posts since 22nd April 2008.

Realize that i did enjoy doing my previous work. Feel blessed of what i have that time. Feel that My Dream Come True. Touched reading my own post on Reflections.

No matter how i plan my life, it will end up not as i planned. Not as how i want it to become. I only plan it but GOD have greater plan for my life.

No matter how hard i try but if it is not right for me, God will not lead me to that path. He will guide me to another path.

But, still there is no harm in planning our life. Not by our own will but with God's Will, it will happen how God want it to be. He always provide us the best because He loves us. Thank you Jesus for guiding me.

With Love,
Little Rose