TRUE CONFESSIONS

Try to hide behind the smile on my face..for the burden to slips away.. (Photo taken at Aso-Kyuju National Park, Kyushu) Been not in a good mood recently. Nothing seems to be right at the beginning of the year. I hope this will not dragged till the end of the year. There is always Hope for a better tomorrow right? So, with that i hope i can pass through this difficult moments. Again? Yes. Seems to be my life is not easy. Too many obstacles come along the way. Am i strong enough? Nope. I am not. Each time i feel like giving up. Feel like to end my life. Depression? Maybe that is what happen to me. In the middle of the night, nothing happen, tears burst out from my eyes. Sometimes crying silently, sometimes louder than a baby... Am i having a problem? Maybe, can't control my own emotions, stress, too much thinking? Maybe. Trying hard to overcome this situation. Feel like blaming Jesus. But He Loves me even more. The feeling of guilty and i realize quickly this is not right. I ...

It is almost 20 days since i started working in Kota Marudu and i still did not get my own house. Looking around but still can not find one. I did find a house not far from junction to Tandek but i am doubt about my safety in that area. It is a new house build by a private individual and i like the house. Since it is new the surroundings is very quite and at night it is really dark, no street lamp also. The rental is standard for KM area RM600 per month. Quite expensive rental in KM now because short of houses. There were teachers, nurses and police from outside KM need a house, so first come first serve basis-lah. If it is in the housing area the rental even more expensive, rarely can find RM600 per month, average is RM750 to RM1,200 per month. Phewww.... what can i do? Still work out on it till i find one. Anyone know any house for rent in KM now? Thanks.

It's a new year and i am late one day to update my blog. Okay, allow me to wish each and everyone of you a  BLESSED CHRISTMAS 2011  &  FRUITFUL & BLISSFUL YEAR OF 2012!!!!! ! For this year i have 10 things to do to become a better person in God's eye. With His help, i shall: 1) Give up complaining .... focus on gratitude 2) Give up harsh judgments .... think kind thoughts 3) Give up worry .... trust divine providence 4) Give up discouragement .... be full of hope 5) Give up bitterness .... turn to forgiveness 6) Give up hatred .... return good for evil 7) Give up anger .... practice patience 8) Give up pettiness .... put up maturity 9) Give up gloom .... enjoy the beauty that is around me 10) Give up gossiping .... control my tongue ( Adapted from Lectio Divina Edition Dec 2011 - Author Unknown ) How about you?  Hope you have a good one for this year of DRAGON!!!! ---- Cheers!! Little Rose