TRUE CONFESSIONS

Time flies so fast. Without noticing, this month is my 6th months working with my new employer in Pitas, Sabah. It has been a great opportunity to experienced new working environment, especially with the field sites such as the mangroves. Since i will be going back home on Saturday, so i did a make over to my office with a little bit of decorations. Perhaps this will motivate me and make me keep moving forward with my new adventure next year with several wildlife inventories and monitoring. Here is a little bit how my office looks like. I hope Mr.Rat will not chew any of the deco that i put up on the wall or on my table. I have a regular fan call Mr. Rat here. Keep on left its little po on my table. *sigh*. But that how it is here. Snakes and rats inside the office is a common thing. My desk with a little bit of here and there. My Patron Saint always be by my side, St. Francis of Assisi.  My notice board made from the recycle computer box with a few words of encou...

The day after tomorrow, i will be going back home to my hometown, Sarawak. I am excited more to go back home this year compare to these past few years. Why?I don't know why, but it is just i am super excited. It was started last week and i end up organizing a simple exchanging gift for Christmas at my office. We will have the exchange gift occasion tomorrow morning just before i am going back to the city to catch my flight on Saturday morning.  Here is a few photos of our preparations. I never buy a Christmas tree myself, so this is my first tree and we put it in my office. With a few decorations and it looks like we are ready to celebrate Christmas. Yippie!!! Hoooray!!!... Set up the Christmas tree With the little santa... With my bestfriend which is very excited to decorate the tree Wrap the fake gifts.. Hang the stars.... We are ready for tomorrow..... Lots of Love, Little Rose

To stay positive in thoughts and actions require a great strength. The person must be very high self-esteem and very confident with his own stands or views of life. However, there is still a moments when life treats you bad, the negative thoughts came in and emotions may break down. I am not a very strong person, physically and mentally. But somehow, my bestfriend keep on telling me that "You are a strong person. You can do it. If others believe and can see that you can do this, you must believe in yourself too".  The words of encouragements from people around me especially the person that really care about me give me strength. I believe they are God's instruments and that is how He answer my prayers when i ask for strength when i feel so weak and hopeless. Dear Lord, thank you for your bountiful love for me and for those who care and loved me. Have mercy on us that we are sinful. Amen.  Blessed Sunday,  Little Rose

When are the best moments in your life? Well, I think the best moments are when you are loved by special people in your life such as your parents, siblings, spouse, relatives, friends and maybe your workmates. Or, when you success in what you are doing such as your study, sports, complete assignments given to you and so on. Or when you having joyful times with your mates etc etc. Lots more to mention, whatever it is, you sure know what your best moments is. Well, something that I want to share here is, the special moments when I am surrounded by great people. Who are these people? I have lots to mention in here because I am grateful to God that He gave me so much blessings since I am born by giving me a chance to meet great people. In these 32 years, God made my life colourful like a rainbow ( maybe more colourful than a rainbow with all the other colours…ha ha ha ). Why? Because I frequently meet new people, from strangers to best buddies or enemies ( don’t you think that your...

Taken during my hari raya leave  I miss my parents!!!! Whoaaaa..... I wish i can go back and see them once a month but i can't do that because i am far far away from home ( well, its just i am on the other part of Borneo Island) . Seeing them during my leave early August is a blessings too because i manage to take photo with both of them. Why? Because it is very difficult for me to get my mum and dad sit side by side like this. Never ever i get a chance to take a proper photos like this with both of them Usually i only can get a photo, maybe my dad with no shirts on and my mum with her singlet and "kain batik". But this is the best photo of me with them properly dressed. Wohhhooooo!!! I am super HAPPY! Well, that's all for now! Till my next update. I am lazy to write these past few months and i always looking for excuses for not write (^___^). LAZY to think and LAZY to write.  He He He...  A little bit Lazy! Little Rose

How many times do you think you change job after your first job? I change quite a few times already. Why? Because i wanted to know where my heart is. I know that i love working in the jungle. I am a jungle Lady. So i am searching and searching for it hoping that i will find it one day. Yes, i believe God will leads my way. So, wanted to know where am i heading started this month? I will be heading to Langkawi Island. A new place and another new adventure and challenge that i will face. Where will be i am working? I working inside the jungle again and i am super excited to know more what awaits me there. Now, actually i am on the way there. I am at the airport waiting for my connecting flight to Langkawi. Wish me all the best guys. I hope this will be my last job before i decide to return back to my hometown. --- Hoping for the Best! Little Rose

“These are the few ways we can practice humility:  To speak as little as possible of one's self.  To mind one's own business.  Not to want to manage other people's affairs.  To avoid curiosity.  To accept contradictions and correction cheerfully.  To pass over the mistakes of others.  To accept insults and injuries.  To accept being slighted, forgotten and disliked.  To be kind and gentle even under provocation.  Never to stand on one's dignity.  To choose always the hardest.”  ― Mother Teresa,  The Joy in Loving: A Guide to Daily Living

“Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.” ― Mother Teresa Do you believe that when you smile to others, just anyone that you meet on street while you walking that you will make up their day? Do you believe that, when you give smile to your friends, they will feel warm inside...? Do you believe that when you smile to your brothers and sisters, you will give them more of your love? Do you believe that when you smile at your parents, you give them so much joy and happiness in their heart? Do you believe in only this small act of love, you really bring a big difference in others life?  If you ask me... I DO BELIEVE. Because when people smile at me, i feel so warm. I feel someone passing me some love and if i feel so down that day, when someone smile at me, i will smile back to them and it really makes my day.  So, just don't become so stingy and don't want to share your sweetest smile with others. Share your joy and love wit...

You want to be HAPPY? Anyone want to be HAPPY right? I want to be HAPPY. Happy in anything, everything that comes along the way. Happy to be who i am.. accept myself for who i am and be happy about it. Happy with my family even though there is so many obstacles or problems happen in my family. Accept all of it, for what it is. See all the little things that makes me smile, my mum laughter, my dad farting, my sisters jokes, my nieces and nephews naughtiness, SMILE and just be Happy. Life will be filled with so much joy and happiness when i start to see all the little things that make me smile and when i smile, i know deep down in my heart, i am Happy about it. Be HAPPY guys! --- Just be Happy,  Little Rose

Suddenly i feel so motivated to do something crazy this year. Something that sounds very impossible for those who know me. I already have a few plan in my head but i am not sure if i have courage to do so. I've been searching all over the internet looking for some information about travel, volunteers opportunity, looking for a retreat places, check the air ticket, looking for sites to raise fund etc etc etc... I have not enough money so i need to have a budgeted plan and if there is an opportunity, i must raise fund to make this crazy dream of mine come true. It doesn't matter which road i choose as long as i can keep my happy SMILE on my face!!! Cheers!!...  Still Planning,  Little Rose

I am bad today. I am not happy because i hurt somebody's feeling. Badly? Maybe. I am not sure how hard my words affect this person. I am taking this person for granted because this person is only a strangers to me. I may say, my new friend but seems to be a very kind person. How i feel after i know that this person hurt, i feel bad too. My heart? Aching too.. *Sigh* Nothing seem to be alright for me when it goes to treating people. Sometime. I am not really sensitive now. I don't really care for others feeling. I just say what i want to say and do what i want to do. I don't care if its annoy others or irritates them. Its just me. Accept it or leave it. Maybe my past experience making me behave like this now. My heart also hurt before. From what a few people that i trust that i thought a very dear person to me did to me. Hmmmphhh... I did not realize this is affecting my attitude, my behaviour now. To this person, i don't know you yet and you also don't know me b...