feel like to vomit.... emotionally break down....
why makes my life so miserable... why can't make it simple and let it go....
i need an alcohol shot...... or a silent moment with Jesus?
Take my car key, drove to my friend's house near town. Along the way, my brain keep thinking all sort of things. Asking Jesus why is this happen to me. Push play button of my car mp3 player.... suddenly this song on air:
I feel like He told me, He is there for me. Just hold on Him and He will be by my side. I am not all alone as what i think. He is my Father which i can depend on. It touched my heart so much and i sang this song together with the player on. After this song, continued with another song. And it was this one that really makes me humble down my own self.....
As if Jesus is talking to me that He know how bad i feel that moment. That He know, i want to cry out but i don't have anyone at the moment with me. He told me to cry on His shoulder. I burst out into tears and i really cried out like a child. I let go all the burden in my heart into His hands. Let go everything and i realize, my life is in His hand. He can lighten my burden. In Him i am not ALONE. I am weak when i am not with Him.
Thank you Jesus for touch my heart and never leave me alone.
Praise to Him the most high!
Shower by His Blessings,