TRUE CONFESSIONS

I have read many books about healing these past few months.My heart is not in a very peaceful state. I always feel sad, depress and bitterness against others. Been attended a few seminars and retreat to figure out what happen to me. Recently i read this book and while i read through this book, i find out i have a pride in me that makes me think i did nothing wrong. My attitude toward others and there is nothing wrong with my action to them. This part of this book tell me something about me. Take Responsibility Fo r Your Behaviour We behave in unhealthy and compulsive ways because of the wounds we recieved in the battle of life, either as children or later, or again, because we grew up in a particular culture. Yet the present behaviour is ours, not of our parents or of a faceless culture. If we do not take responsibility for this, that is, admit that we are the ones who behave thus, we will continue to play the game of blamming. Instead of using our energy for changing ourselves, we ...

Do you know about this event?  The Most Beautiful Thing - Ultra Trail Marathon 2015.  It was my first time aware about this Ultra Trail Marathon event. My ex-lecturer from Universiti Malaysia Sabah inform me and i decide to participate. This will be my first trail run ever. I register for 25km run. Not really sure if i can make this but with a few other friends participate, i think we can do this together. To become a FINISHER.  If you are interested to know more about this event, just click to the link i share above. You will be directed to the organizer website and more information about this event is explain there.  The location of this event is at Sabah, Malaysian Borneo. The route is amazing with chill hilly area and i am sure you will be amazed by the beauty of the majestic Mount Kinabalu as well.   Oh ya, if let say you don't have friends to run with you and you are not familiar with this place, you can contact me because my frien...

I saw a beautiful tulip flowers posted on my friend's FB timeline. It was posted with a message, " My intention is to fill up Facebook with flowers to break the saturation of negative images and videos. If you like this post, I will choose a flower for you." Since i like her post so i was among her circles to spread this flowers images on my timeline and others (our FB friends). So i choose Pink Rose because i am a fan of rose flower despite of my name is Rose.  Photo credit to Reader's Digest I didn't really put so much attention to the meaning of every Rose's flowers before until i search for the meaning of Pink Rose for replying my friend FB post. I found it in Reader's Digest   and it quite interesting what each of the colour means. Here i shared what each rose colours means. Photo Credit to Google Image Red: Love and Romance One of the most universal of all symbols, the red rose represents true love. It has also appeared through...

Working far from city is actually great because i can save up my monthly salary. But, with the advanced IT and there is a chance to buy things online, i might have problem to save up too. *cry*. Therefore, discipline is needed and strong heart, not easily fell for things that i can get online. I start to do online shopping especially on cloths when i don't have time to spend at shopping complex in Kota Kinabalu. Not only that, i found out that the price of one mini dress online and in boutique is really huge difference. I can get one nice mini dress online with RM35 but it will cost me about RM70 in KK. Now, the price is double. Therefore, i decide to go for online shopping. I start to shop for cloths on Sally Fashion . This is what Facebook has done to me. Sally Fashion have its Facebook Page and i saw most of my friends LIKE this page. On one fine day, i decided to look at this site because i saw some Korean style dress that attract me. This is the beginning of my online shoppi...

Sidnie Tatom Zumba routine. Photo credit to Google Images.  I was slow in doing my exercise these past few months. Been a while i didn't play badminton or jogging after work. Its only my working environment that keeps me sweat out and stay healthy. With the work that i did, i walk a few kilometers in the jungle, up and down the hills. But, i have a bit of problems, i lost some of stamina. I panting and lost breath catching up with my fellow workers when we hikes in the jungle. Therefore, i decide to start exercise again. Girls in my office very determined to loose weight since one of them getting married this coming December. So, i decide to join their group and start to do some girls favourite workout, ZUMBA or Aerobics. I know, both have their differences but i just put both into one and create our own steps. For the past weeks, it feels very awkward to do this in the open area. We don't have gym or close room to conduct our activities, so we just use the open space...

It has been a while i didn't update my blog. I am so occupied with work and lots of other things lately. But, i still miss blogging. Here is what i want to talk about today. I wanna talk about watch, Casio which you can buy it online actually from one of the fastest growing online retailer in Southeast Asia, ZALORA Malaysia. It is undeniable that people nowadays tell the time by glancing at their mobile phones but there are some people who still acknowledge the wonderful wrist watch as their time telling instrument. And that person is me. I still prefer a wrist watch because if i am not using it i feel something is missing. Women will tend to use watches as a substitute bracelet to dress up their outfit and the best thing is watches are very flexible to match with anything we wear. There are a variety of watch brands available in the market and one of the well-known brands to women is Casio. The brand is always keeping in track with the latest fashion trends to provide their fash...

Photo credit to BleedingDesperation at deviantART Trust is not easy to built. It takes times. It might takes years and years to built trust. Once it been built, it take more challenges to keep the trust. However, once it is broken, what do you think you will do? If the trust was built within a year and crashed only in one day, will you trust the person again? Do you think you will give the person a second chance? Do you think the person deserve to be given a second chance? My personal view about it. It will takes years and years and years for me to give the same trust that has been broken. I will forgive but unfortunately i can't forget the incidence that makes my trust gone. I can give a second chance but will always think twice about whatever the person did because i just can't trust the person totally like before. However, i am grateful to God for giving me this love that makes me be able to forgive and heal the brokenness. Heal the broken heart, Rossa  

Photo by InsideMe  at DeviantART Where am i?  What am i doing here? What brings me here? I am LOST Lost in this small space Lost my directions Lost my inner self Lost inside Should i give up? Do nothing about it Should i return to where i am from? Should i just follow the flow? Photo by Zindy at deviantART My heart is aching My brain is suffering My body is weaken I need wine, NO I need beer, NO I need music, NO I need friend, MAYBE I need family, MAYBE What i need the most? I need YOU LORD, Yes i need YOU Your strength to strengthen me Your love to forgive others Your wisdom to be wise Your meekness to be humble Guide me dear LORD Show me Your way God bless..... ----- With Heart Full of Worries, Little Rose

I feel like i am a super bitch and bad ass at work last week. I already promise to myself that i won't share anything that sounds so negative in my FB profile. Somehow, the stress take over, the anger take over until i also confused on my own actions and words that came out from my mouth.  Mostly it was feel like this and my relationship with my co-worker is very bad at the moment too.  I just can't cooperate with people with an attitude "Berlagak BOSS". I am not here to be praised, to become everyone's sweetheart, to become your most favourite. I am here to deliver my job, to ensure every task done accordingly and there is no oppression (unjust treatment) to other staff especially lower staff. I don't care what you think of me, maybe you will say i am "satan mistress", "monster", whatever nicknames you gave me, i don't give it a damn! I am just who i am. — feeling super ridiculous. Somehow, i have to get rid of this ne...

When i am up on the summit last year, i was struggling to get my best shot on the Low's Peak along with the signboard to mark that i was there, up on the top of Mount Kinabalu. There are more than 100 climbers climb everyday so you can imagine how crowded it is on the top by the time of 6 - 7 am. The space is also very limited and on the other side is the Low's Gully. The view is amazing and breathtaking but at the same time, it is very dangerous steep rocky down to the gully. Low's peak 17th March 2013 I saw a very saddening news today in one of the group in FB, Beautiful Mount Kinabalu . Through the update in that group i get to know one German lady fall down to the gully early today. There is no recent news in any newspaper that i found but i get also updates from he Mount Kinabalu page. Here is the 1st and 2nd updates. Update at 10am this morning: A 22 year old German woman, fell into Low's Gully from Low's Peak summit early this morning at Mount Kinab...

Photo Credit to Sissy It feels like to kill someone ( it's the worst! ) with a very sharp blade and make that person struggle to death. Or punch straight on their face and makes their eyes swollen like a ball. Or kill them slowly with poison so i can watch them died in a very suffering way. Mock them as if they are the most unwanted person in this world. Well, that's came in my thoughts when i get annoyed or angry or pissed off by someone whether it is at home, at work or on the road. I am no saint, i am an ordinary person with the most terrible emotions at time.  Be patience, let God do His work. I always hear this from a friend. Time will tell, God will show you who is right, who is wrong. But, my question is, WHEN? I have no patience when anger controlled me. However, i thank God for keep people with faith by my side. So, i will never doing something stupid that show how stupid i am by acting like a crazy woman.  My advice, control your anger. Keep your...

Feeling sleepy at work or tired of sitting on your office chair the whole day? Why not just take a few minutes to do this simple workout. Maybe this will help to get back our momentum at work. Well, as for me, i need this because i easily feel sleepy if i sit for too long. Actually i get this from my friend's post in FB. Then, i visit the webpage of Neila Rey and i found more workouts. Here is the office workout steps that you may want to try out! Photo Credit to neila rey All the Best! --- Workout Addict, Little Rose

I think i already doing well with my 1st Workout  but still no obvious results on what i accomplish yet ( berketul2 la ni muscle kaki ). Somehow it did makes me sweat out toxic form my body and i satisfied with that. Therefore, for my next step i want to do this workout to flat my stomach. Ha ha ha... I will workout on doing more exercise to shape out my body because it makes me more comfortable at work and trekking will be much easier when i am fit. Here is the steps to do flat stomach workout that i found Online. Photo Credit to Google Image Search If you think you also wants to try out this workout, please do and share with me what do you feel and is there any improvements with your stomach. Well, just an advice workout alone will not give a good results, so please check out your diet as well. :) --- Determined,  Little Rose

First of all, it's not too late to wish my fellow family and friends... GONG XI FA CAI!!!! XIN NIAN KUAI LE!!!! May the year of Horse brings more good health, wealth and happiness in your life! Blessings from above! My #1 resolution in my list achieved. I pick up my Red Riding Hood on 30th Jan 2014 and with a very good register number. I am proud of myself. With help and support from family and friends, i make up my mind. Wise decision? Yes i think i am.  The Red Riding Hood is at his service and we are ready to ride to the bush! Ha ha ha ha..  --- Red Riding Hood, Little Rose

Did you ever question yourself, WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE IN THIS LIFE?  I did not think much about it anymore like i was in the past few years before. Why? Because i think there is no point for me to think too much about it anymore. I am in my early 3 series age already, so i know where i am heading now.  God created me and i must have a purpose to be in this world. I discover one of my gift. To bring happiness and joy in others life.  To see smiles in someone else face. But somehow, even though it sounds easy and simple, but yet very difficult to make it my daily practices. What is your purpose?  I give this comment to my friend in my FB, kinda giving her advice: "some people say, i don't have focus in life, some ppl say, i am crazy, some people say, i did not think of future, some ppl say.. bla bla bla... i don't really care anymore what ppl say sis. i live my life as long as i know i am doing what is right and i live it to the fullest and did not waste ...

Almost all of us have Facebook account and i have two accounts ( there is a reason why i got two btw ). The story begins when my friends start to post something weird in their status. I wonder why they post something like, I'm a stripper on the weekend  and the other one Someone offered me a job as a prostitute but I'm hesitant.  Of course, their status sounds more like jokes for me, even though i am not really sure what happen. So, i just give them a "like" and also some simple comments, "LOL". The next day, i received an inbox message from my friend. Its a game and you have just become another target. Hehheh. You never should have commented or liked my status (or msged me regarding this) HAHAHA! You fell in a trap! The person likes or comments on my status should choose one of the following phrases and put it in their own fb status for atleast 24hrs. I dare you to do the same: 1. I hav been in 42 different relationship 2. I think i am in love with someon...

This will be my collections of postings about my mission to live more healthy by doing more exercise or workout for this year. My first workout is 15 minutes Sexy Leg Workout. I get this workout from my friend's Olivia Facebook post. She is also my Blogger buddy, find her at her Blog liv's stories . If you want to know her more, click the link and find out more about this amazing girl.  Here is the workout: The first time i tried this workout, i can't do it. The muscle on both of my thigh is very painful. If i force more, it feels like my muscle will ripped off ( ha ha ha, what a bad thoughts! ). But, when i did it for 2nd time, hmmmph... it is not that difficult actually. If you want to try it, reduce the frequency to half, 10 squats, 15 lunges, 20 calf raises, 25 second wall squat, 50 jumping jacks, 25 second wall squat, 20 sumo squats, 15 leg raises, 10 squats. Then, when you succeed with that one, then proceed to the full one like the above photo.  It i...

Is there any problem for being a single woman when your age turn to 3 series? I think there is not a big problem even though at time i need accompany to do things together, or when i am sad or happy that i feel like sharing it with someone. I will not share full story of mine for being single at this age but do you know there is a dating sites for Catholic singles? I was bump into this sites while searching for some Catholic faith readings about vocations. This site is call Catholic Match . If you want to know more about this site, just click the link and discover yourself. I join the site as a free user about a month already but i did not really make any effort to find or search for my other half. Why? Because most of the users are more than 8,000 miles away from me. I am not quite sure if it will works. Well, there is success stories shared in the blog of this site called CatholicMatch Institute . If you think you want to give it a try, just go for it. I am not really serious about...

Did you ever take any dry seaweed as your food supplement. It was so famous in Sabah and everywhere else in Malaysia. People are talking about the nutritions of this seaweed if you take it regularly. Some called it Pure Marine Collagen. I don't know much about this if it is true or not. I search for more information about this species because there is a farming project under Fisheries Department project for community development somewhere in Semporna. There is farmers of seaweed in Semporna, Sabah. These rural people improve their household income by involving in this project. That is a good news to hear. Okay, back to this seaweed species. I am very lazy to write information about this seaweed because if you type correct keywords in Google Search, you will founds hundreds articles about it. Why? Because there are so many seaweed sellers/ or distributors out there. They wrote anything, everything about it especially the benefits of taking it in your daily diet. Here, let me give ...

I never really take it seriously when people send me feedback using Contact Me Form in my blog. Why? Because usually i get all the crappy and spamming things. Then, it is not worth it for me to consider if the person that contact me is seriously meant what they want or just one of the stupid spammers. Somehow, this #6 person that contact me give me a little bit of attractions. Here i share what she wants: Subject : Article Idea! Good afternoon,  I’m reaching out to you because of your work with your blog (I love the name!). My name is Kendra Thornton and I'm 40 and a mother of 3. Before being promoted to the full time position of mom, I was the former Orbitz Director of Communications where I was able to travel a great deal. I now live in Chicago with my family, where they are my number one priority in everyday life.  I am currently working on a project where I am sharing my favorite things to do in one of my favorite places to travel, Las Vegas. I am looking to collabor...

I am On a Mission "Life Quotes Facebook Cover" It may sounds funny but i feel like wants to make just a little action which perhaps can make little impacts to my circle of family and friends in my Facebook account. I have 957 friends in my FB. Well, probably not even 30% aware of my action by changing my FB cover photos every morning. However, i am good with it because, i did not means to attract them but we never know, whose heart will be touched or in need of word of encouragement that very day right?  Here is some of the FB cover photos that i use since 7th January 2014. Life Quotes, Little Rose

Do you have or make your lists yet? Well, of course you have made it since last day of December 2013. I have all goals in my mind but i did not yet jot down in books or journal or in my so called journal blog here yet. Why? Because i still have this habit "PROCRASTINATION". Which already so long time i wanted to get rid of this bad habit of mine. :( Okay, let's share my 10 new year resolutions with you all. Replace my Little Greenie with Red Riding Hood. Why? Because i need Red Riding Hood more than my Little Greenie now. This is because of my work place which have a very bad road condition. My Little Greenie sure suffer a lot if i bring him to my work place. Pity him so much.  Living a healthy life. I must get rid of toxic in my body by doing more physical exercise. At least i must jogging three times a week and play sports once a week. This is all to sweat out toxic and it will help my brain to think straight. Ha Ha Ha.  Marathon!!! I must try my very best to par...

Photo Credit to Google Image I think it is still not too late to wish my dear readers out there a...... HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014!!!.. This is a late wishes because i was thinking to make an entry with all my new year resolutions and so on. But somehow, i keep delayed it with all the excuses. Therefore today i decide to just put up this entry with my warm wishes for the new year to all of you.  I have so many things in mind to achieved and to be done this year.  I will spend some time to write it down and share with you guys once i finish it.  Just to let you know that i am excited for this year because i feel so positive there will be many great things will happen in my life. In my family, career, relationship, spirituality and so on. I will keep myself in a positive mind even though it will be very difficult to do so with all the stressful things which might happen at work and at home.  Photo Credit to Google Image With that i wish you all the ...