Start to Believe In Myself Again!!

When people really trust me and have faith in me.......
When people believe in me that I really can make it happen.....
It feels like burden at the beginning because....
I am not sure if i really deserve all the trust from them...
Am i worth of those the faith that they have....
I only see there is no hope in front of me but they see there is another chance...
There is the opportunity to be grabbed...
Something that is still there and i need to step forward to use it wisely...

When i feel give up.... they say:
"I believe you can make it...you are a fighter.... not a looser"... 

"I will not give up on you because i see how hard you work on it before.... We will help you to finish this..."

I keep on telling myself, i am no good because i did not have any confidence left. But when i meet these people and how hard they trying to help me.. What did i do? Did i just sit back on the couch and watching television? Crazy with my K-Drama, Merlin etc...? It is me who waste so much time and never use it wisely. It has been 5 years and now it is 6 years .... The challenge that i have to face and have to fight is, to fight againts my own self.. to fight with my bad habits...

To believe in myself, to have faith in myself, to be confidence with myself... I deserve all the trust that people have in me but i have to trust myself first..

Dear God, 
Guide me and show me Your Way... Amen.

With Love,
Little Rose..

P/s: Rambling from KIA Starbucks Table with a cup of green tea latte...